Summertime Sadness

Chapter 21

Word count: 1213

Warnings: Angst, sadness, fluff

Author's note: The last chapter! Thank you all for the support through this entire series! I think I really grew with my writing, and this was my largest project yet! I really hope you enjoy!

Song Suggestion: Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran

"I love you too, Y/F/N Y/L/N." Josh's voice was soft, and he placed little kisses all over your bare shoulder.

"I'm so sleepy," you yawned.

"Me too, let's sleep in the car." Josh stood up and threw on a t-shirt and basketball shorts he had packed in his car.

"I don't have any clothes besides for my dress," you said as you wrapped yourself in a blanket.

"I came prepared." Josh shuffled around in his Jeep before pulling out a pair of sweatpants and one of his t-shirts. He handed you them, and you threw them on. They smelled like Josh, and you were hoping he would let you keep them after he left to Washington.

Josh laid down the back seats and created a little bed with pillows and blankets so you both could sleep in the back and be comfortable. You both got tucked in, and you nuzzled under Josh's shoulder.

"I can't believe you leave tomorrow," you mumbled. You started to think back on the summer. Good memories and bad memories.

You had no idea that the boy you met at a party would impact your life so much.

You had no idea that an older boy with gauges and tattoos could hurt you so much, yet make you fall in love so quickly and deeply.

You wanted to spend the rest of your life with Josh, and you wanted to help him and support him through everything.

"Y/N, why are you crying?" Josh asked when he noticed teardrops falling on his chest.

"I'm going to miss you, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me."

"You're the best thing that has ever happened to me too, but I promise everything will be okay. We can facetime, we can call, and I'll be home for the holidays."

"Promise you won't leave me?"

"I promise, Y/N, I love you and only you."

"I love you, even more, Joshua." You closed your eyes and the next thing you knew you were sleeping on a snoring Josh.

* * * * * *

"Good morning my love," Josh whispered into your ear. You opened your eyes, being blinded by the sunlight.

"Josh?" you looked around trying to remember where you were, and the memories of last night came back to you. "Josh."

"I'm right here, my love."

"I could get used to that," you chuckled.

"What?"

"My love! I like when you call me that," you told him. You sat up more, rubbing the sleep out of your eyes and fixing your hair that had fallen out.

"You're always going to be my love," he kissed your forehead. "We need to get going though, I need to leave by noon. It's going to be a long few days of driving."

"I wish I could come with you," you mumbled, knowing that there was no way and that these were your last few hours with him.

"I know, but we are going to go back to my house first to finish packing the stuff I haven't shipped there, and then I'll drop you off at your house."

"Okay," you said sadly. You really did not want to let him go, but there was nothing you could do. The road trip back to his house was spent with you belting out Awolnation, and giving Josh his own little concert.

"I don't think I've ever sung that loud before," you yelled over the music.

"You're such a good singer, I really think that you should Tyler's place in the band."

"Speaking of the band, what's going to happen with that?"

Josh shrugged, "He is still going to write music and we are going to try to make it work."

"That's good because the band is getting so big! Maybe one day you will be so famous that you get noticed in public places! Or people will make fan accounts of you and stuff!"

"That sounds horrible, plus I don't want people stalking every move I do."

"Maybe people will write fanfiction about you," you giggled.

"Oh god, I don't even want to think about that." Josh grabbed your hand and he held it all the way back to his apartment. He parked his jeep and you helped him take in the blankets and pillows so there was enough room for his boxes and suitcases.

You helped him pack up the last of his clothes. He had already shipped kitchen essentials as well as bedding and stuff like that. He was moving into an already furnished apartment so he didn't need too much.

"Is it weird going to college for the first time being so old?" you asked while you packed his toiletries.

"Not really, I wanted some gap years to figure myself out."

"I'm glad you did."

You and Josh brought out each box and suitcase one by one until his Jeep couldn't hold anymore. You climbed into the passenger seat and watched Josh lock the front door to his apartment.

The car ride to your house was spent with you holding in your tears, and Josh rubbing his thumb over your hand that he was holding tight. He pulled in front of your house and you both looked at each other.

He grabbed your face and gave you one last long passionate kiss. The last one for a while. When he pulled away he rested his forehead against yours, and you both stayed like that for a few seconds.

"I love you, Dun," you whispered.

"I love you too, Y/L/N."

"I'm going to miss you, so much."

"I'll miss you more."

"Impossible," you smiled. You looked up into his big brown eyes. You studied his face, just so that you wouldn't forget it. You focused on his soft lips, and his nose ring, and his wrinkles next to his eyes when he smiled.

You opened the door and hopped out. You closed the door and walked to your door before turning around, and blowing a kiss to Josh. He pretended to catch it and bring it to his heart.

"Bye, Y/L/N," he waved as he started his jeep and started to drive away.

"Goodbye, Joshua." Your vision became blurry as the Jeep got smaller and smaller. Once you couldn't see it anymore, your world felt like it stopped. You could feel your heartbeat in your stomach, and it was hard to catch your breath. "Goodbye."

Your heart ached, not like when it felt broken from earlier in the summer, but a different type of ache. One where it felt like it could still function, but was missing something so it wasn't functioning fully. It felt empty, yet heavier.

You walked inside your house and ignored your family asking if you were okay. You were numb, and the world was moving slowly as if it was a few frames behind. You laid on your bed and looked up at your ceiling. Your phone buzzed and you grabbed to see you got a text from Josh already.

I miss you already. Just like how the stars miss the sun in the morning sky.

You held your phone next to your chest and breathed in heavily. You had already started counting down the days until you saw Josh again.

The End.