Forgive

Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Waking up the next morning, I am in bed alone. I hear Happy over the baby monitor "Hey little dude. Let's get that ass cleaned up." he says and I can't help but smile that he's actually changing a diaper. After a couple of minutes I hear "Now, let's get that belly full." he tells Charlie. I get up and walk to the nursery and see Happy sitting in the rocker, feeding Charlie. "Morning." I say. "Morning babe. How are your feeling?" he asks. "Okay." I tell him, not wanting him to know I'm worried I'm gonna lose this one. "Come here." he tells me. I walk over and sit on his lap. "Talk to me." he says. "I'm okay." I say. He looks at me and I stand up. "I'll start breakfast." I tell him and he nods.

After I get breakfast done, Happy brings Charlie in. I get our plates and then take Charlie from him and just sit and hold him while I eat what little is on my plate. When we get done, Happy takes the plates and puts them in the dishwasher while I change Charlie again and put him down since he fell asleep. I'm standing there looking at him when I feel Happy's arms wrap around me and he starts rubbing my stomach. I stop his hand. "Don't do that. Not right now." I tell him and pull away. I walk out to the living room and he follows me. "What's going through your head?" he asks and gives me a minute to get my thoughts together. "I'm scared Happy. I'm scared you're going to cheat again. I'm scared I won't be a good mom. Hell, I'm scared I'll lose this one like I did the other baby." I tell him. Cupping my face, he kisses me softly and says "It's gonna be fine babe. Just concentrate on Charlie and our little hell raiser and everything will be fine." he tells me and I nod. "As far as me cheating, that will never happen again. I'm all yours." he tells me and I just nod again.

After we talk, he says "Let's head to the clubhouse and tell everyone the good news." I shake my head. "I don't want to tell anyone until we're at least past the first trimester, please." He kisses my forehead and says "Okay. We can wait. But I still want you at the clubhouse with me." he says and I nod.

We pull up to the clubhouse, him on his bike and me and Charlie in my car. When I get out, Happy walks over and kisses me softly and then grabs Charlie's carrier out of the car and laces his fingers with mine before we walk inside. We walk over to one of the couches and he puts the carrier on the floor. I sit on the couch and take Charlie out and he snuggles into me. "That baby loves his mama." Venus says. "Yeah. He does." Happy says and I look up at him and smile softly. "How are you doing little one?" Venus asks. I don't speak. I just look down at Charlie and hold him closer. Venus looks up at Happy and he says "She's worried about some shit." She puts her arm around me and says "Whatever it is, we are all here for you sweetheart." she says and I feel a tear start to fall. I hand Charlie to Happy and head to the bathroom, tears falling down my face. Venus follows me in. "It's okay sweetheart." she tells me as she pulls me into a hug. "No it's not. Venus, I'm pregnant." I say softly. "Well, baby girl that is wonderful news. Why don't you seem happy about it?" she asks. "I am. I really am. I want this baby but the last time Happy and I got pregnant, I caught him cheating on me and I was in an accident leaving and lost the baby. What if..." I start. "Stop that right there. No what ifs. There's no such thing as what if. What if the water in the tap turned to soda? What if the rabbits sprouted wings to fly? What if the sky suddenly started raining apples? So many what ifs that don't matter to a hill of beans. So, tell me what has you so upset about this little miracle?" she asks. "I don't want to lose this one. I can't lose this one." I sob. "You won't baby girl." she says before cupping my face. "Listen to me. You have me and Lyla and every man with a reaper to help make sure that doesn't happen. You have perfect little Charlie and you will have this perfect little angel just try not to stress." she tells me and I nod.

After cleaning up my face, we walk back out and I take Charlie from Happy. I snuggle him against me and he is sleeping. Happy wraps his arms around me and whispers "Are you okay?" I nod and whisper "You should tell them." He looks at me and I nod slightly and he kisses me hard before whispering "I love you so Goddamn much." He turns to everyone and says "Listen up. We got something to say." Everyone turns to us and I look at Venus and she nods her support. "We're having another kid." he says and everyone comes up to us and hugs us. When Tig gets to us, he hugs Happy and then cups my face and says "Congrats Doll." before kissing my forehead. Quinn hugs me and whispers "It's going to be fine. We got you." he says and I nod before another tear falls. I move to the couch and sit with Charlie and Happy moves over with me. Sitting beside me, he tilts my chin up and kisses me softly. "Our boy and our little hell raiser are going to be just fine babe. I promise." he says and I smile softly and say "I hope so."

We decide to crash in the dorm and have Charlie in the bassinet we keep in there. Lying in bed, Happy puts his hand on my stomach and I feel him rubbing circles. "I want a girl." he says and I look at him like he has two heads. "What?" I ask. "I want a little girl. A daddy's girl." he tells me, looking down at my stomach. I tilt his chin up to look at me and say "I want that too. But what if we have a boy?" I ask. "I'll be happy with a boy too." he says before kissing me softly. "I love you Happy." I say. "I love you more little girl."