Forgive

Chapter 11

Chapter 11

Waking up the next morning, I am in bed alone. I lay there for a minute and I hear Happy over the monitor. "I got you kid." he says and after a couple of minutes, I hear "We're lucky kid. You're mom, she's amazing. She puts up with me screwing up and still somehow loves me. Now, here you are and she took you as her own, no questions asked. I love her so damn much and you...I didn't know you existed kid. But you're here and me and your mom love you and we'll do everything we can to protect you." he tells Charlie. I get out of bed and move to the nursery door. I lean against the frame and watch Happy holding Charlie and all I can think about is how she didn't want him. I put my hand to my stomach and turn away with tears in my eyes.

I walk to the back deck and Happy walks out, holding Charlie. "You okay babe?" he asks. I nod but don't look at him. He moves closer and stands behind me. Putting his arm around me, still holding Charlie with his other, he pulls me back into him. "Talk to me babe." he says. I turn to look at him and he wipes the tear from my eye. "How could she not want him?" I ask. "I don't know babe but I know you're a better mom to him already than she ever would have been. I see it when you look at him. You love him." he tells me. "I do. I love him so much." I tell him. "I saw you touch your stomach." he tells me. "Just wondering if I'll ever have one. I lost one. What happens if I lose another?" I ask. "You won't. I'll be here this time. I won't fuck up again." he tells me. I take Charlie from him and he snuggles into me. Happy puts his arms around both of us and says "We're going to have more kids babe. I promise." he tells me and I just nod.

After putting Charlie to bed, we lay down and he pulls me close. I lay there in his arms and neither of us say anything. "I missed this. All these years, I missed this." I say. "Me too." he says. "Why did you do it?" I ask and he looks at me. "Why did you cheat on me all those times?" I ask. "I was stupid." he tells me. "That's not an answer Happy." I say softly. "I know. I'd spent years just fucking anyone I wanted to. Not having an Old Lady and then when I found you I fell in love with you. Gave you my crow. Married you. Looking at all of my brothers hooking up with anyone they wanted, part of me missed it." he tells me and I pull away from him. Before I can say anything he says "I don't miss it now. When we lost Jax, Juice and Bobby, I started thinking about things. Thinking about what I missed more, being single or you and it started hitting me that I missed you more. I loved you more. I needed you more. Babe, it made me realize I would give anything to be with you. I would give up my club if it was what you wanted." he says. "I'd never ask you to do that though." I tell him. "I know. But I would. And now I have you and Charlie and you're all I need." he tells me. "I think we should wait until Charlie is a little older before we try for more kids." I tell him and he nods. I turn my back to him and he snuggles up behind me and just holds me as close as he can get me.

The next morning, I wake up and hear Charlie's little cries. I get up and head in there to get him and while I'm changing his diaper, Happy walks in with his bottle. "Thanks." I say and he kisses me softly. "Love you." he says. "Love you." I say before feeding Charlie. Happy heads to take a shower and I am sitting there watching Charlie and he's looking up at me. "Mommy and Daddy love you little boy."