The Clown Behind The Mask

4. *Deep breath*

Well well

I never liked my bro

He called me a loser

So yea

I go to my mom

She said I'm so useless

I went to the college

My senior called me waste

I thought of asking God

How could u do this

There was a trainer

He asked 

what my problem is

I told him all this

And I still can't believe

That I cried before my classmates

Nobody really knows 

Nobody could really say

That I feel so insecure

Being on my own way

Everytime 

my mom starts to speak

Tell

Or maybe yell

I get the urge

To puke

To slap 

And

To say "shut up"

Instead I cry

Right now

I wish to be a deaf

At least when they say

"Your parents know what's best for you"

Oh...

Maybe I'm best at crying 

And that's what I always do