ROSES FOR HIM

Reason 7- Suicide is the best way

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I was on my way home.

Refreshed.

As I walk at the mansion. I saw kuya francis at the sala reading newspaper. I stopped when he called my name

"What?" I asked.

"It seems like you don't know anything right? Little sis?" He put his newspaper on the table and look at me.

"Kuya if you want to tell something, be direct to the point." I rolled my eyes.

"Jared is getting married"

I glued on the floor. My heart dropped on my stomach and my tears are just like pagsanjan falls because of what I just heard.

"N-no. That's not true." Pinilit kong maging kalmado.

"Here." Inabot sakin ni Kuya yung newspaper na binabasa nya kanina.

Millar Group of Company and One of the Most Powerful Company from Spain are going to be ONE. I saw a picture of Jared and a girl with a ring. No! Its not true. He's too young and his mine. ONLY MINE.

Napaupo ako. Nanghina ang mga tuhod ko. It's like, something hit me. How? I waited for him! I save myself just for him. I shield my heart to love someone because all I want is him. Only Jared.

I run. I want to die right now.

I got inside my room. Ibinagsak ko ang katawan ko sa kama ko. My mind and my heart broke into pieces. That's what im feeling right now. If that's possible.

"Fuck you!!!!! Your a asshole! A stupid fucking asshole!!!!!!! I hate you!!!!!"

This is so ridiculous. I cried until I got tired.

I asked all the maid to give me brandy. I drink. A lot.

My eyes were sore from crying. I let out all the emotions. I felt mad, angry and broken. And this scenario, is same as when Jared left me 8 months ago.

I sat at the edge of my bed and smoke.

"I keep holding. I keep waiting for you.... Hahaha how stupid of me?" I laugh while sobbing. I reached for my bedside drawer and took out a blade. I was playing with my pulse and blade.

I close my eyes when I felt the pain. I saw my blood running through my hands.

"Sana hindi na lang kita minahal. Sana hindi ka na lang dumating sa buhay ko. O kaya sana mamatay na lang ako. Damn you jared! Go to hell and marry that stupid fucking girl for all I care! Fuck you!"

I'm getting tired. Weak. Helpless.

Pakiramdam ko bumibigat yung mata ko...

★ Josh's POV ★

It's a great morning. Konting tulog na lang sabado na. Pero wala pa rin akong nakikitang babae na maipapakilala sa mom ko.

Inilibot ko ang paningin ko sa room namin. May sari sarili pa ring mundo. Yung mga kaibigan ko? Ayun may kanya kanyang babae. Habang ako nakaupo sa upuan ko.

Nakita kong papasok si Janna at Gracel sa room. Bakit wala si Julie?

"Did you receive a message from kuya francis?"-Gracel

"Oo. Ano na naman bang kagaguhan yung ginawa ni Julie at nasa hospital na naman sya?"-Janna

"Hospital?" Di ko napigilang magtanong. Ni hind ko alam kung bakit nakikinig ako sa usapan nila.

"Oh hey cutie!"-Gracel

"Julie is on the hospital, I think she did something."-Janna.

"Why? Is she sick? Or something happened?"

"Ayy antaray! Nag aalala?"-Janna

"N-no. I just want to ask her something."

"Edi ipasabi mo na lang samin. Makakarating naman yan kay Julie."-Gracel

"It's confidential"

"Ahh. You can come with us. We are gonna visit julie at the hospital later. After class."-Janna

Kung sa hospital pa, baka magalit lang sya. Baka mas lalo pang lumala yung kondisyon nya.

"Mmhh. Sorry but I can't come with you. I 'll just talk to julie tomorrow." I smiled.

"Sayang naman. We want to bond with you pa naman."-Gracel.

Napakamot ako sa ulo ko. May pagka bitchy tone kasi yung voice ni Gracel. Siguro kaya nahihiya ako."Maybe next time"

Natapos ang klase. Uwian na. I decided to buy some fruits and flowers for Julie. Para bukas madali na lang.

"Janna! Gracel!"

"Wow!"-Gracel.

"Please give it to her. It's for Julie."

"Ahhhh. Yieee you like her?"-Janna

"Hey im jealous" Gracel pouted. And Janna glared at her.

"Just kidding! Hahaha"

"Dont worry josh. We will give it to her"-Janna

"Thank you. Bye"

"Bye!!" Ang hyper talaga nila.

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[Author's Note]

Hello! :))

Eto na!!! Wahahaha sa wakas nakapag-update din. Sorry sa matagal na update guys TT.TT God Bless ♥