Listen, I just, I can't. Either I just distance myself or we just stop talking because it's all too much. With how you keep treating me and apologizing but doing it all over again and with just all the drama and fighting it's too overwhelming. Also just, with you being best friends with chayla it makes me feel unsafe okay? And plus it's unfair to all 3 of us. Like locomo for example. I just can't put my safety and maybe even yours too in harms way and I just feel like we aren't connecting and being better than we thought we could right now. I just think we need space. At least for a while.
I need to get out of it. It's too toxic for me. I need to mature and make better decisions and be a smarter healthier person and I can't when I'm sitting here around all this fakeness and toxicity and drama and fighting it's not healthy for anyone. I need to pay attention to how things affect me and just not put my main focus on others like this because it keeps me stuck way more than I should be. If I'm gonna be honest with you I believe that I should've let go in the beginning of summer but I didn't and I regret it. This summer just wasn't good for me and all the drama that surrounded you and chayla just got to me and I let it blanket over me.
So for at least a while, goodbye. And I mean this.
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Poesíawill get depressing, might have triggering stuff. if they do I will put a warning at the top.
