Release: My Public Diary

tryna peer-pressure?

Okay so my main questions before I get into what I have to say is:

Am I allowed to be upset? And is this subtle attempted peer-pressure?

Okay lets get into it.

So I just graduated. But before that like 3 of my friends lost their Vs before New Years or on it I don't remember lol and only one of them I'm close to like I consider her a close friend I can talk to about anything like a best friend but I don't like using that term (maybe I'll get into why one day) anyways,

So before graduation like 2 weeks before it me and 3 of my friends including the close one, lets call her Gina. So Gina- and you know what also another one is somewhat I'm close to lets call her Kel. So its me Gina, Kel, and another. We decide to skip our 3rd and 4th period and hotbox Kel's car and get food and shit like that.

So we get food and hotbox tf outta kel car but the one not named had to go home i don't remember why so we dropped her off at home. We ran out of weed and oil (Gina brought her dab pen I left mine at home) so we being the potheads we are decide to find some dealers around us.

Now I smoke but I wouldn't say I smoke alllll the time I have a stash but I only use it if need to but my house is far from the school and were like around the school neighborhood area so Kel she always got a plugg so she got like 3 dudes ready to sell to us. We put our cash all together and messaged the first dude.

He was like "who all with you" and she said Me and Kel but like said 2 of my friends. So he like what y'all look like? Idk why he need that seeing that him and Kel were on messenger which connects to FB and she got her pfp so do it matter about me and Gina? No tf

So she deadass was like well lets take a selfie so I said unh unh I asked for her phone and I texted him like nah lemme see you and who you wit? Cause yall know this trick at least for me when it came to finding a plugg they be tryna see if you can do some favors... if you catch my drift. And all tho even if I was dead ugly they still would ask if its that type of dude sellin its just everytime they ask something like that I already knoooowww.

So he like okay and he sends a pic.

Biitch this dude had his fuucking forehead in the pic only and not cause he got a big asss forehead, and only had his friend in the pic.

So we laughin or whatever then he like send a pic of yall and I text back saying "nah we know who we gonna buy from, loco?" So he drops it and tells us where he at this dude in the next state over 🤦🏽‍♀️. But its not a long drive tbh from our city to get to the city he at in the other state but we was not about to bust a mission like that, so we tell them to meet us halfway.

So we about to go but then we started thinking about us deadass about to meet 2 dudes across state lines halfway just for some fuucking weed... so we was like nah but still keepin the idea on the table and started messaging the 2nd person.

The 2nd dude kinda slow at answering and i guess was just driving around and shiit so he wouldn't give us a steady loco so Gina start talking about the first dudes in the next state over (Washington why tf didn't I just type that the whole time ion feel like going all the way back up there and editing it yall forgive me) (yall know I write my shiit freestyle whatever)

So Gina talm about the dudes in Wash. And she bring up how kinda creepy they sound in the text and Kels and I agree we laugh then she was like "if this dude don't answer I don't mind meeting those two dudes up" so Kels was like "oh well I feel like they gonna try to make us do something or suggest it so I don't wanna go"

See what Gina say next is what had me questioning: can i get outta pocket with this ?

So Gina says: "Oh if they do just let Say suck their dicks she needs the experience anyway"

So I'm high ash so at first I laughed but then thought about it and Kels didn't laugh she just glanced at me in the mirror then at Gina cause she laughing but Gina ain't notice.

So after I put together what she said I said "I ain't sucking shiit just to have experience especially for no ugly mfers" but I said it in a like laughing voice.

Kels laughs and Gina does too but i think she kinda sensed the shade and then said "well just saying" so i let it go

Kels messaged this 3rd guy who we ended up buying from and now we hotboxing again and then went on our way to drop Gina off cause she had work

End of that first story now this second one with Gina.

Gina threw a party idk why I forgot and we talkin with mutual friends and other friends of hers then we disperse kinda but its me Gina and 2 other friends now just talking

When we were talkin in a bigger group they was all talking about stuff they did and giving advice about stuff like sexually or romantically with they bfs or random dudes so I'm just listening or chiming in with laughs and goofy questions, also I was crossed asf (drunk and high) but when we dispersed into the group of me Gina and 2 other homegirls they still was talking about it

So Gina was like "What about you Say?" And I'm like ???????

Like she knows I'm a virgin I have no problem saying that so I did, well I made a corny asss joke with it I was like "Well I'm a Virgo so of course I'm a virgin for life duuuhh" the two girls laughed and Gina was like "Nah fr are you?"and I was like yeah I ain't fuckin nobody

And she was like "Ohh I would expect you to been fucked somebody" then she started to compliment me like oh you have a nice body, your butt is big, you have a curvy body boys like it and I'm just standing their with my cup of liquor like

And I just feel like girl is you good? Why you keep bringing my shit up especially in front of other people like youn even ask this shit when its just me and you like you popped coochie and now I gotta pop mines too?? Nooooo

Like this is my close friend like if someone came and jumped her imma knock the fuck outta whoever and she gonna do the same but like idk why she keep asking me shit like that its kinda annoying

Oh and another short story we was at a party and her cousin was there too and she was tryna hook me up with him like I'm dancing here he come like noooooooo and he way older than us like???? She kept telling me that he seen me when i walked in and I'm thicc or whatever but ion want him noooooo

But yeah so can I be salty like am i allowed to be upset? Like idk i feel like theres more to why she is doin that but idk wanna spill HER tea but if yall guess and I agree then there ya go

Have you been in similar situations?

Do you think it's reasonable why I'm upset?

Why do you think is the reason for all this?

Let me know what you think ❤❤❤❤❤❤ thanks for reading and advice if you leave any❤❤❤❤❤