Meet My Dedication, Inspiration

Chapter 3

Hey guys! The guy in the picture is Dillon! Urgh I love it >.< he's bad ass! Let's get started!

As we walked to the car Dillon kept trying to talk to me. I ignored him most of the time, until now.

"Why won't you talk now? I'm trying to make a friend which clearly isn't working. SPEAK PLEAAAAAASE!!" He said dragging the, a, out in please. I turned to him with a smile.

"Hi. I don't like you. Back off. Find other people to be friends with!" I yelled at him.he smirked in pleasure. Why is he smiling!? He finds this funny?

"I don't want to be friends with anyone else other than you." He said hooping my nose. I glared at him and smacked his hand.

"Go be gay somewhere else!" I said walking to my car and he followed. I understand he wants friends but why me? I got into the drivers seat and he got in the passenger.

"I'm hungry." He complained.

"No, no food!" I said. He smirked like he had an idea.

"I'll leave you alone for the rest of the day..." He said. Damn he's clever.

"You will... FINE!" I said in joy. This meant no more him talking to me for the rest of the day and that my fried is just what I need.

"What do you want to eat?" I asked.

"Anything you want... I'm not from here." Dillon said. Austin was on tour in England, so that ment... JESUS!

"McDonalds" I said. He just shrugged and chuckled. I drove and he asked questions and like before I ignored all of them... Except this one.

"Have you ever gone out with someone and avoided them like this? I mean come on grow up!" He said. I pulled over and got out of the car. I slaked the door behind me and sobbed. The thought of Ian made all of the sadness flood back to me. I reimagined him.

"He's sitting right there! You have to like him..." Ian said looking through the window.

"I can't. I only love you. I can't love anyone else. I don't want to lose them like I lost you.." I said still sobbing.

"I made a stupid decision. I know that. But you can't let that stop you from living your life. I know what he said probably was mean but he's just trying to figure you out. Love him he's all you have left." Ian said and disappeared. He's right. I can't let one little mistake stop me. I got back into the car and looked at him.

"Yes, I've had a boyfriend. No I didn't avoid him. He committed suicide... I avoid falling in love. It makes me imperfect, which is very bad. I have to be perfect." I told Dillon. He looked shocked and sad.

"I've avoided love.. My girlfriend cheated.. I tried suicide.. As you can see I failed the attempt. I avoided it and now I wake up at different types of the night and sob uncontrollably." He said. A tear escaped his beautiful blue eyes.

That happens to him too?