~ benifit of the doubt ~

♡Chapter Nine~ First Kiss?♡

I woke up super early!! Earlier than the first day of school. I felt like I did yesterday but on steroids. Good thing I had went shopping for makeup before we moved!! I grab my mascara and begin to apply it i blink to hard and it gets on my eyelid. I look at myself in the mirror wondering why my mom was the way she was. Why did she have to leave me? You could've been here to see me grow ur to the woman I am today. You could've been the one helping me right now as I do my makeup. But no, you had been the irresponsible parent you are today and always will be and didn't think to use protection and here I am and you can't even be the mom you were supposed to be? How is that fair. I begin to cry. I grab a wipe and begin to rub it off. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. "You know what?" I thought "I had 15 birthdays without her, I had my first word, without her, I learned how to ride a bike without training wheels without her, and I am going to grow into a beautiful woman without her. I don't need her. I have made it this far without her so why let it bother me now?" I toughen up and start dapping powder on my face to hide the blotches of red that had appeared when I started crying. I do my makeup and look in the mirror. "I look like a clown" I say. In the mirror I can see my Dad looking at me from the doorway. "Look at you." He said. "You have your moms eyes." He said as he came and hugged me. I had a sense he knew that I was going out with someone. "So why are you getting all glammed up?" He asked. "It's time for the plan" I tell myself. "Well actually I am going out." I say. "WHAT NOO MARILYN WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I think. I close my eyes in fear of his reaction. "Oh ok" He shrugged and walked into the kitchen. "What? He isn't mad?!" I think to myself. I thought about it for a while and realized it was 6:25. I kiss my dad goodbye and walk outside. I send noen a picture of my outfit and makeup. "Do you like it?" I put as the caption. He responds with: "Absolutely stunning!" I smile at his response as his car pulls up. His car was so pretty. It was a greenish blue with beautiful white headlights and green taillights. He opens the door for me and closed it gently making sure my dress wasn't closed in between the door. "You look beautiful" He says. "Thank you." I say. "And you don't look so bad yourself." I say smiling back at him. "Thanks." He says back. "I was going to wear a tie but I.. couldn't tie it.." He said. He was so cute when he was embarrassed. "Aww I couldve helped you!!" I say. "Really?" He asks. "I still have it, if you won't mind doing it while I am parked?" He asks holding up the tie. "Of course" We pull up at the restaurant and I grab the tie. We were facing each other. Damn his eyes were so much more beautiful upclose. "Do you want me to teach you?" I ask. He looks down to see me instruct him. "First pull it under, Then tighten, Pull and loop." I say making a perfect tie. He seemed impressed. "I bet you had a lot of boyfriends..." he said as almost he had thought about saying it. "Actually no.." I say looking down. Well I might just be your first." He giggles and holds his hand out. I hold his hand for real this time and we both walk into the resteraunt and order. "Yes um.. Carbonara for me.. And uh.. What do you want Marylin?" He says offering to order for me. "I just want a salad with soup" I say "You heard her." He says, smiling back at me. My face felt hot. We started talking while the food was being prepared. "So where are you from?" He asks. "I am from Oklahoma City..." I say smiling. "Oh nice I go there a lot for vacations.." "What about you?" "I am from Minnesota." He says back. "Oh nice." I say. "Do you want to go to your house or mine afterward ?" He asks. "Well I cant go to mine because my dad will freak so.. Yours?" "Yeah sure.. And does you dad not know about us?" He aks as if we'd been in a two month long relationship. "Well no.. I don't really tell him these kinds of things ya know..?" I ask hoping he'd understand. "Yeah.. but you tell your mom though right?" He says reassuring. "My mom isn't with us... She didn't die... She just is a really bad person." I say. "Oh I am so sorry... Does she live with you?" He asks. "No actually that's why we moved here.." I say. "Oh okay. Both my parents are in jail." He says. "What?!?" His face goes red. "What??" He was confused. "Oh sorry I didn't mean to seem so shocked it's just.. I feel like your always so happy and you're never upset and I feel like I relate to you more than anything..." I say. "No.." My face also went red. "I thought the same about you, Marilyn." He smiles and kisses my hand. Our food arrives and we start acting all cute while we ate. Then afterward went to his house.