Behind It All

Fellow Fangirl

Harry called me the next morning. He said the boys had some work to do today so I could meet up and go shopping with his girlfriend Millie for the day.

You agreed and are now sitting at a small cafe in town after hours of shopping.

Millie is a really nice girl and very pretty. She likes a lot of the same things as you and you get on so well. You've not stopped laughing all day. It's great to have someone to spend some girl time with!

"So what's it like being with Harry? do you get much bother from fans or paparazzi still?" I asked her after taking a sip of my coffee.

"Nah not much anymore. When everyone first found out it was pretty crazy but now the paparazzi don't bother about me unless I'm with harry and most of the fans are really nice now they know me be a bit better." She smiled.

"What's it all like with you and Niall?" she asked. Millie already knew that Niall and I's relationship wasn't real, Harry had already told her.

"Well the paparazzi are annoying but I guess I'll get used to them and the fans aren't so bad actually. In Fact, Niall's probably meaner to me than all of them!" I chuckled, moving a hair from in front of my face.

"Don't worry about Niall, he's just being stubborn. Once he opens up to you and gets over this whole thing then he really will be one of the nicest guys you will ever meet. I can't imagine Niall treating any one like the way he treats you. Its completely not who he is." Said Millie.

"I actually used to be such a huge fan of the band when I was 16 and I adored them all so much, Niall in particular! He was my role model, my inspiration, he meant everything to me and I never thought he would ever treat someone like how he treats me.." I sighed.

"Oh really, you were a fan aswell?! So was I! I was absolutely crazy about them!" Millie chuckled.

"Yeah I was the same! I loved them so much it hurt! I still kind of do! I was such a huge fan you know, with a fan account and everything!" I blushed.

"Me too! And did you listen to the leaked songs and stay up all night for the new albums to be released?" Millie asked, her face lighting up as little memories of her fangirl days popped into her mind.

"Yes!! Totally! I cried at all the concerts and I'm not even ashamed!" I laughed.

"Did you umm...read umm..fanfiction?" Millie mumbled shyly.

A smile spread across my face and my cheeks turned red as I remembered the days of staying up late just to read some fanfiction of the boys...especially Niall!

"Yes! I was a fanfic fan!" I giggled slightly embarrassed.

"Oh my god, me too!!" Millie giggled along with me.

We talked for ages about memories of our fangirl years.

Those were the days.

"I miss being a fangirl, my life was so good back then. When I started college everything just turned into a big mess and then James came along and I ended up having no time to fangirl anymore" I sighed.

"Who's James?" Millie frowned.

Oh shit.

Should I tell her?

Harry already knows, what harm could it do?

I doubt she'll tell Niall.

"If I tell you, you have to promise not to tell anyone, especially not Niall!! the only other person I've told is Harry, you really can't let anyone else know alright?" I said to her.

"Oh of course, I promise I won't tell anyone" she said looking worried.

"James is my one year old son" I spoke quietly.

"What?! you have a son?!" she asked too loudly making some heads turn from the tables around us.

"Shhh Millie, you can't tell anyone"

"Sorry, I won't, who's the dad?" she asked. That question was one I dreaded people to ask.

"He's not in the picture" I told her.

"Aww, I see. Can I meet him one day?" she asked with a smile on her face.

"Yeah sure! Wanna see a picture on my phone ?" I asked her.

"Yes!" she chirped.

I took out my phone from my pocket and found a cute photo of him which I took yesterday.

"Oh my gosh! He's so cute! I have to meet him one day! Oh my goodness, Harry and I will look after him any time!" she giggled.

"Haha thanks, I really appreciate it. I really don't want Niall to find out." I said looking down at my phone in my hand.

"How come?" she asked.

"Niall already hates me because of this mess, I don't want to bring my son into it" I sighed.

Just then I noticed it was 5pm, I decided I should go back to the hotel for dinner.

"I should get going, I need to give James his dinner" I sighed.

"Me too, I've got to get home and call Harry, I'm coming on the tour soon so I'll see you in a few days. Bye, give James a huge cuddle from me and oh remember, don't worry too much about Niall" she said after standing up and giving me a cuddle before walking our separate ways home.

I'll try not to worry. Hopefully things will get better.