Banana

Part 11: "Im gay"

Pop star Lauren Jauregui coming out of the closet? When star Lauren jauregui was confronted by media outlets out side of sacred heart hospital about a pregnancy rumor she countered with a statement reporting she is in fact gay. Now, I'm sure we've all had our doubts about her sexuality from the beginning but to hear it from her mouth, well that has every fan and non fan surprised.
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Lauren's pov
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"Fuck" I threw my 10th bottle of wine at the wall watching the glass shatter and the small contents left in it drip down the wall. How could I be so stupid? Now I'm going to loose it all. My fans are probably going to hate me. Fuck my manager will kill me. I'm going to be fired. Camila is going to be so disgusted at me. I'll loose everything I had and didn't want. My phone rang pulling me from my thoughts.
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It's Ally.
"Lauren"
Her voice brought more tears to my eyes.
"Ally i- I'm so sorry I didn't -"
" I'm proud of you" she interrupted me leaving me bewildered
" what?"
"I'm proud of you, look I wasn't always as.... nice to you as I wished I could have been but I was there since you were a kid, I practically was raised with you, when I became your manager we were both kids , I was freshly out of college and you were barely 16. And you are like a sister to me, i love you and I care for you like I would my sister. Even if I don't show it. And i felt as if I had to keep you safe. But I am proud of you, and you are talented, you'll be fine with everything , I already have a meeting set with another record company that wants you and will give you everything you need and want. I want you to look at it and have your fun, set it up so that you benefit and I'll back you up . I love you Lauren."
" I love you too"
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Camilas Pov
Lauren left and I found myself alone with the man I'd cried over most nights. We hadn't talked in hours, I wouldn't let him talk in front of lauren, she can't know, not about the hitting, not about the drinking , nor about the other stuff. I found myself thinking a lot of the possibilities that could happen if I'd just tell Lauren and every single scenario was horrible. So I looked into his eyes which seemed to show no sign of alcohol,though the smell never went away. His bloodshot eyes filled with tears was a normal but the shine in them wasn't and I found myself wondering what he is doing here in the first place. He should be out getting drunk by now, or sleeping off a hangover.
"Camila" the silence breaking felt surreal, he's talking to me instead of yelling between hits or crying in my lap, this hadn't happened since my mom's death.
"Papi?" That was supposed to be a statement but it came out more as a question as I fought tears.
"I'm sorry, lo siento Karla. Yo soy estupido, I'm so stupid, and I let my emotions keep me from raising my own daughter. I did unimaginable things and woke up with little memories of them. I don't deserve to be called a father, even less your father. But I want you to know I'm getting help. Hearing about you being in the hospital, hearing that this hospital visit hasn't been your first . It made me realize that I didn't put you first , you were always so strong while I felt like crumbling, I guess I though you could take both of our pain while I got drunk and ran from it. Pero te amo Karla Camila cabello Estrabao. Please forgive me , please, I can't loose another person."
My tears ran freely at the sight of his.
" I forgave you a long time ago papi"
We cried together for what felt like hours but was probably a minute. And as I closed my eyes and didn't see the memories , as I closed my eyes and didn't see his face , or his belt, or the hits , or my screams to stop. As I closed my eyes I knew that from this point on there's be no more suffering.
No more