Camilas Pov
The words flew from my mouth before I had a chance to stop them. I knew she'd be scared, fuck I was scared, but she couldn't know that.
"We need to talk" those words sounded as if I were winded at best, but in reality, my head was on fire , thinking up all of the scenarios and possibilities of the conversation i'd mistakenly started. I must've thought of about 100 scenarios before her eyes finally woke completely and her frown was replaced by words.
" I know"
Two simple words carried a million feelings in them and I knew that ,yet I chose to ignore the way my heart rate picked up and my breath caught even more in my throat. And with a clear of it , I begun.
" you broke me , I didn't think I'd be able to be even more shattered than before and yet you broke me. I was given something I hadn't felt in years , hope, and with one small flick of your fingers you took it all away. I spent weeks sitting on my living room floor , intoxicated beyond the healthy amount , thinking. Asking myself , why would someone build a person up , just to shatter them? Why would you give me everything I never thought I'd have , just to throw it all away? Seriously I must be a joke to you. I must've been a dare , or maybe you felt bad for me , or maybe you just wanted to destroy me more. But you surely never loved me . And yet , you stood in front of me today and the only thing I could focus on were those eyes i'd once thought of as my heaven. The only thing I could look at were your lips. You broke me . And yet I love you , and I hate myself for that every day. You broke me Lauren . And yet , looking at your goddess like features , I've already forgiven you. And I would be lying if I said I wouldn't let you break me again"
Tears spilled from my eyes. Gasps I couldn't hide fell and as I stared into her cloudy ones, I saw tears of her own fall. Maybe I wasn't alone, maybe I didn't need to suffer anymore ? Surely she wouldn't break me again. No! She couldn't . No one could be heartless enough to play a trick on a person twice . No one would have enough energy to even try. She wouldn't . No she couldn't . Could she?
" Camila" " I- I'm sorry"
" I broke us"
" I broke me"
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Who wants to hear lauren talk??? I know I do 😇
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Banana
RomanceSo I can't really write a good summary . This is my first fanfic so I don't expect it to be good or anything. It's basically set where Camila is a high school student who gets abused and bullied and lauren is a singer. #camren Mature It will have...
