Banana

part 14:Regrets

Lauren Jauregui seen talking to mystery girl at party and then walking home with same girl? Seems like this Popstar is finally going to be showing a new girlfriend. Has the ice queen melted?

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CAMILAS POV

I told her I had a girlfriend. I lied. Of course I lied, I've barely known Lauren for , what?, a month, but I'm already falling for her. I even jumped at the opportunity to spend a night with her at the banquet, even though I asked to bring Dinah, for moral support. And I kept my distance, for moral support? I don't know, I'm a mess, I've never felt like this, I've never had the dreams Lauren brings to me every night, I've never woken up in cold sweats and had to change the sheets like I have had to these weeks.
She whispered in my ear. It was surprising, a change in confidence after she stuttered out I was pretty on that dance floor. I stopped everything , I stopped breathing, I stopped smiling, my every thought went into controlling myself from making any noise. You can say my ear is sensitive. Very sensitive.
My eyes stuck to the sky as we walked side by side to the hotel room. Why walk? I don't know , but I wasn't going to argue. She was talking animatedly about how fish were unable to cry physically but scientists had found a species of fish that can actually wail and make noises that copy crying. I didn't pay attention. I was too busy staring at her eyes spark and turn a light green with the light of the moon hitting her face in such a way, she looked like a goddess. Hell she was a goddess, she had the voice of one , the smile of one, the eyes of one.
But I had a "girlfriend" . I lied, I was too scared to tell her the truth. I couldn't confess that I would probably never have a girlfriend as long as I had that smile to fall again and again for.
But she had a girlfriend , of course she did , she was so fucking beautiful I couldn't imagine her single. I guess I'm doomed to stay single forever. We would never be together anyways. Like I've said before ,the invisible girl and the star are never going to be anything more than friends.
I made it to my hotel room first, turning back to Lauren and whispering a quick goodbye before darting into my room and a cold shower. Let's just say I needed it. I changed into my black shorts and shirt, ready to sleep, then I got a text.
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Popstar😁: do you want my cookies? I truthfully bought them but I hate the taste. I've noticed you liked them.
Camila: sure
Popstar😁: well I'm going to take a quick shower but I should be out when you get to my hotel room. I'll give them to you then.
Camila: okiee I'll be there lolo
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Nerves.
We all feel them at one point right? Surely I'm not the only person in the world hesitating , with one hand in the air about to nock on Lauren Jauregui's door. Well maybe there's no one else with that exact experience but maybe a similar one. That thought comforted me as I softly brought my knuckles to her door in a quick nerve wracking nock.
One click
Two clicks
Wriggle of the door handle

And her face stared back at mine . Her hair wet from that shower she'd just taken. Her body only being covered by a towel.
Fuck
Fuck
Fuck
She has a girlfriend Camila control yourself.
She opened the door wider, probably expecting me to come in, but i stood in my spot trying not to seem as turned on by her appearance as I was.
"So you gonna give me those choco-"
A push to the wall right inside her door stopped my sentence. I drew in a sharp breath, her eyes a dark green, staring straight at mine with a hungry look.
" I can't resist you, I've tried so hard Camila, I've tried for so long, but my thoughts make it hard to control myself. So I'm done trying . I'm done fucking caring anymore.i need you"
A kiss. They always tell you a kiss is supposed to have fireworks , they tell you, when it's the one , the kiss will burn you, or it'll give you electricity. But I didn't get any of those.
Our kiss was otherworldly , it was intoxicating in which I could only focus on her lips moving against mine, her hands on the wall next to my head. The kiss didn't have fireworks, or lightning bolts, it didn't feel like a burn. It felt like heaven, it felt right. And I'd never felt anything like this. I tried so hard to stop the sounds but as her lips fell down to my neck , softly nipping at my collarbone , sucking up to my ear , my moans grew loud.
"I need you Lauren"
" that's all you ever needed to say"

And i gave up at that point. I gave my thoughts up to her lips, her hands, her fingers (😏). The last thought in my head was her. And i found my brain wandering to the opposite of this outcome. What would have happened if I didn't go to her room that night. Maybe I would have ended sleeping alone. Maybe I would be in an oblivious bliss. But I didn't, and I'll deal with the consequences.