Banana

Part 19: hospitals

Lauren's pov

I knew there was something wrong the second I got the text. She never sent me things like that before. She'd said she loved me. She'd said she would miss me. She said she was letting go. There was something wrong, there had to be something wrong. Someone didn't just randomly think to those words. Someone didn't just randomly text after weeks that they loved you, not unless they felt they had nothing to lose . Not unless they felt they had nothing left.
I called
No reply
I texted
No reply .
I ran
Where would she go? Where did she like to be? Where did I know she would want to go for this? The peer. The peer!
The sky was a dark grey over my tear soaked face and dusty car. The rain drops didn't take long before they pelted at my window as if it were their cry for help. I listened. I can't lose her. I can't let go. I arrived shortly after 5 minutes. The peer. The first time I'd wondered past this peer was about 3 years ago. I'd been walking past when I saw an ambulance . I saw the ruckus . I was only 16 at that point. I saw a young girl crying. I saw the shell of a man looking as horrified as I had been the day my life changed. The girl was all alone, tears in her eyes as she cried for her mom , this would be the last time she'd see her mother. Camila. That was her name. I'd walked up to that girl and told her my name. I was Lauren Jauregui, the big star , I wasn't too big really at that time, but well known. I'd given that girl my charming smile and hugged her. I'd given her my sweater that day. I wanted her to smile , I wanted to give her something to live on for. She looked so broken for a 14 year old girl, she reminded my of my own past self. I wasn't that much older than her, but I had gone through enough to know the face of a shattered heart.
I'd never gone back to that peer after that day. I simply went back to my life as a robot. Not thinking of the memories , id lost them deep in my brain over time. Today felt profoundly like that day, it was a dark and broken day . It was a rainy day , as if the sky were crying for a loss . As if the gods themselves didn't plan for this , as if we were losing an angel.
I saw her clothes littering the floor first . Her shoes scattered across the ground next to my hoodie. My hoodie.
Camila .
It all made sense. I'd met her in the same place. She was sleeping, as if spending more time with her mother. Camila was the girl from 3 years ago. It was her mother's death anniversary. I didn't know. How could I have not known? How could I have let her spend so much time waiting for my texts and instead wait for hers. I let her have nothing left. I was to blame for this. I killed her.

The rain tickled my body as I ran towards the edge of the peer with only one thought, is she still there? Is she still in her body fighting for life ? Is she still thinking of her mother? I saw her. Her body. Like a ballerina it flew against the waters surface .
I can't lose her.
I can't lose her
Black.
I'd never thought much of darkness, I was always too preoccupied with the light . Maybe Camila loved the darkness. She spent so much time with her eyes closed . She spent so much time looking down . Looking to the dark ground. And now there was no ground to look at. It was all just dark.
My body fought against the current with hers entangled in my arms and like a surge of energy I pulled us both out onto the peer. The lightning hit fast . My field of vision blurred more, and at that moment I could almost see her smile. But instead I stared into her lifeless body.
Call the ambulance
Call the ambulance
Call the ambulance
"Hello?"
" hello I need help "
I wrapped her in my old sweater from 5 years ago.the world can't lose another person to this peer.
" I love you Camila"
I can't lose another person to the world.
I love her.
" quick please I need help I'm at the peer. My friend. My friend jumped. I don't know how long she's been under water but I don't think she's breathing. "

Please.