Save me. Im about to fall (Jimmy sullivan)

Save me i'm about to fall (jimmy sullivan) this isn't a home

<P>I went back home</P>

<P>I dreaded going back there, i knew what would happen to me</P>

<P><EM><STRONG>will i make it out alive? will i be strong enough to fight? what will happen to me?</STRONG></EM></P>

<P><EM>i can't let this go on forever, i need to be free, why can't i leave!</EM></P>

<P>my thoughts and fears where clashing into one another. I did not want to go back to Todd but i had no choice, i had no where else to go</P>

<P>I opened the door, the lights where off. <EM>i bet he's in the room, grab something and kill him! he doesn't deserve to live after what he's done to you. he said he'd get help but he never did </EM></P>

<P>I was shaking. i didn't want to say hello. or make a sound incase i might start something i don't intend to</P>

<P>"there you are."</P>

<P>i panicked. i didn't want to turn around and face him</P>

<P>"<STRONG>turn around when I'm speaking to you!!!!!! you will not disobey me! do you understand you ungrateful whore! i gave you everything and you toss it away like it's garbage."</STRONG></P>

<P>he's screaming at me. i stood there shaking like a leaf. he grabbed me and turned me around so i was facing him</P>

<P>he slapped me in the face then threw me on the floor. i began to scream thinking this was just like my rape.</P>

<P>he kicked me in the stomach and legs. he kit me all over. my face was blotchy and red from all the crying. he didn't seem to have any remorse for me. he just continued hitting me</P>

<P>"<STRONG>now you listen to me, you'll never see daylight again unless it's for going to get my food. understand."</STRONG></P>

<P>he'll never let me out, how can i save Cheyenne from all this?</P>

<P>he hit me in the face again and again until he left hand prints visible. </P>

<P>when he finally left he gave me one more kick before he left the house. I stayed there on the floor crying my eyes out. </P>

<P><EM>he said he would get help. he said he would get help. </EM></P>

<P>I was defenseless against Todd and we both knew it. </P>

<P>I thought of how i would clean the blood from all over the floor. i began to get up, and examine myself in the mirror. there was dryad blood on my face and on my inner thighs. he tried to pry my legs apart so he can torch me. but i wouldn't let him</P>

<P><EM>this isn't me, i don't deserve this, i have to get help</EM></P>

<P>I decided to call Jimmy</P>

<P>how can i eplain myself. what about work? i been gone for so long they probally fired me</P>

<P>I'll have to use make up to cover it all up. then i can explain myself. no matter what i can't live this life. i cant do it a day longer. i've put up with this far too long. </P>

<P>I won't live like this</P>