Beautiful as You Are

Chapter 20 · Coming Back

Yoshi Shigamora

Willow's Pov

10 days and counting

Thats how long I had been staying at a hotel room near the therapist office. Despite Akilles' sending me away, I have been going to my therapy sessions and trying to get better.

Chasity and Martha have been visiting me or calling everyday, overwhelming me in motherly affection. Amy had came around telling how everyone is in the pack. It wasn't all bad but I wanted Akilles' to pop up at that door and whisk me back home.

Hearing Laxie begin to bark, I go see she is sitting at the door. Putting on her leash and my shoes, I open the door locking it before going to the park so she can do her business and I can get some fresh air. Letting her wander around, I look at my shoes as I grumble.

"When will mate come get us? Is this his way of getting rid of us?" Reign worried. "Calm down. He'll come get us. He will." I say even though I was unsure myself.

Coming to my sense, I start walking Laxie on my leash. "Ummm....excuse me, miss." Feeling a slight tap on my shoulder making me jump as I turn.

Looking up, I see a tall guy with light brown eyes and a handsome face. But not as handsome as Akilles'. "Sorry to disturb you but I was wondering if you would maybe grab some lunch with me. I'm Yoshi Shigamora by the way." He said brown eyes inviting and hopeful.

"Willow Burgess. I...umm don't think that's a good idea." I say slowly. "Oh, well I'm mated, see." Yoshi said pulling the collar of his shirt down letting me see his mark.

"Okay but let put my dog back." I say getting a nod in reply. I walk back to the hotel before putting Laxie in the room. Going back to Yoshi, we walk to a diner near by. "How come I haven't seen you around before?" I ask curious. "Oh, me and my mate old pack was ransacked by rogue so we had to come here. But the Alpha here is pretty moody. He looked so sad one minute then raging the next. I asked what was wrong but he growled at me." Yoshi shrugged and my heart clenched as a small whimper left my lips.

"But anyway, what are you doing living in a hotel? Are you new?" Yoshi asked.

"I've actually been here for 5 months but I'm living in a hotel because my mate told me to give him space." I sigh looking down as our order come to the table. "Well, he's a idiot." Yoshi said making me growl. "But lets not talk about that right now. I need a friend and I like you Willow." Yoshi chuckled nervously.

"We can head to the arcade. Get to know each other." I offer.

"Cool, lets go." Yoshi said

***

The whole day Yoshi and I spent the day together. It was probably the most fun I had in the past 10 days. I laughed, smiled and even goofed off.

I felt I could be completely myself. I didn't feel the dread of my mate not wanting anymore. I didn't feel the abandonment. I didn't even feel the overwhelming wanting to just be with my mate. I didn't feel any of that the whole time I spent with Yoshi and I was glad I didn't.

It was late at night when I got back to the hotel, entering inside I see the light on which I didn't turn on. Proceeding with caution, I call for Laxie but she didn't come. Walking some more, I see Akilles' wolf curled around Laxie as he sleeps.

Sighing softly to myself, exchange my track suit for a loose shirt and shorts. Slipping into bed, I turn away from Akilles' because in honest I was mad.

Why couldn't Akilles' come get me earlier? He had me wait 10 whole days for him to just show up at the hotel I was staying in. Did he get off on my pain?

The exhaustion from today set in as my eyes closed and I succumbed to sleep.

***

Feeling a small tug on the blankets, I growl irritated as I was tired and wanted to sleep in. "Laxie go away, go to sleep." I grumble and the tugging stopped. Sighing as sleep evades me, I wake up seeing Akilles still in wolf form staring at me.

As wrong as it may seem, I ignored him getting up, taking some clothes in the bathroom. I do my routine as well as take a much needed shower. Feeling refreshed, I dry off before putting on my underwear rubbing in my lotion before slipping on my sky blue sundress along with some white flats. Exiting the bathroom, I see Akilles' sitting on the bed in humanoid form.

His blue eyes staring in longing at me. Looking away from him, I hook Laxie's leash to her before exiting the hotel room. Letting her do her business, I sit on a bench sighing. "I missed you Willow." Akilles' mindlinked me, his voice hoarse. Sighing as I could never could stay completely upset with my mate.

Taking Laxie back to the hotel room, I see Akilles' still sitting on the bed. Undoing Laxie's leash, letting her run around, I stand in front of Akilles' out of his reach.

"I'm sorry that I pushed you away after we came from council. I just had to sort out my emotions." Akilles' sighs looking at me.

"What about my emotions?! I was distraught, I am distraught over what happened to me. I thought as my mate you would understand that, I was suffering. I thought you could help me but you abandoned me so you can handle your feelings. I lost my family, I lost my childhood, I lost my pup and now I'm losing my own mate." I say breaking down into tears as I look at Laxie who sat in my lap.

"Your not losing me Willow." Akilles' whispered. "I sent you away because for one I didn't want to do something and you take it the wrong way. I also didn't want you to see me covered in Ryder's blood." Akilles' says reaching for me.

"I didn't like it." I growl out.

"I know."

"I am hurting and you left" I whisper.

"I know. I'm sorry."

"I missed you alot."

"I know." by the time we finished talking Akilles' had came over to me and was just centimeters away from me. Sighing, I look down at my shoes, indecisive about what should do.

"I know your upset and I would be too. But just give me a chance. I want you and Laxie back in our room. I want you at the pack house, everyone misses you and Laxie. And mom is pretty scary when she's angry." Akilles' admits to me making me chuckle at the end.

"She said she was knocking sense into quote big knogin end quote." I say laugh at him. "Willow, do you ever of think of Alaricus?" Akilles' asked looking at me. "Of course....all the time. But its nothing I can do I have to learn to move past his death....S-Sometimes I try to convince m-my-myself he's alive playing in the grass somewhere." I say studdering as I look down at my stomach.

"I went looking for his burial site and I found him. He didn't deserve that not at all. I want you to know, it's okay. If he were alive, I would treat him like he's my own." Akilles' says and I could help but smile at him.

"Thank you." I whisper to him. "Will you come back to the pack house with me today? I miss sleeping beside you at night." He whispered holding onto my waist, pulling me closer if possible.

"I think so but next time you push me away to handle your feelings, I'll get your dad on you." I smirk seeing his face pale. "Have you been to therapy appointments?" He asked as I nodded.
Pressing my lips to his, I pull away before looking down to see Laxie barking at us.

"See she's a good gaurd dog." Akilles' joked making me laugh. Pulling away from him, I gather everything together before attaching the leash to Laxie.

"Lets go home Akilles'." I say smiling