With every ounce of my being I know I am wrong.
I know I am everything I tell people not to be.
But I can not stop.
It's not that I want to hurt you.
I am the definition of self destructive.
I know that being with you is all I want in the world but its is also everything that is making me die inside.
Dramatic I know.
I look at your picture and the feelings I get are so uncomfortable.
Uncomfortable because I love someone I can not hear.
Someone I can not see.
Someone I can hold.
Its selfish.
But I need you in front of me.
I need you to be real.
My mind does everything it can to comprehend what you do to me.
To make me believe you are real.
