Fame Comes With A Price (In Editing Process)

It's not working

The sound of the rain intesifying brought Tay back to reality. Swearing as she realised her phone was getting soaked, she turned around and jogged to the backstage to shelter from the rain. 

Even though her 'fling' with Jenna was short, it was also sweet. In the two months they had dated, a strong bond was established between Tay and Jenna that even not even their break up could sever.

The reason for their break up was simple; As much as both girls loved and cared for each other, the confusion of their sexuality made it very hard and uncomfortable for them to take their relationship to 'the next level'

As much as Tay hated to admit it, the idea of getting intimate with Jenna terrified her. Throughout the dating process, Jenna had poured her soul out for Tay, telling her about her history, fears, dreams, hopes, fears, insecurities, pet peeves, scars, health problems, wierd fetishes, and everything in between. Tay done the same in return.

It felt like a weight had been lifted off Tay's back when she opened up to the blonde. For years Tay had been holding back from telling anybody about her life and aspirations simply because she felt nobody cared enough to listen to her, and that she would simply be a burden to them. 

Up to this day, Tay felt so greatful towards Jenna for making her realise that no matter how unapreciated she felt, there would always, ALWAYS be someone out there in the world that would be interested and care for what she had to say. 

To Tay, the idea of having sex with Jenna kind of felt like a violation of the freindship they established. She enjoyed the soft, innocent and gentle contact that the couple had shared. They went no further than cuddling together and kissing each other. 

Tay knew that crossing the barrier could either end up cementing their realtionship, and maybe the startling realistation that both of them may be lesbian. Or the worst case scenario could be that the only freindship that Tay ever really gave a shit about would be torn appart by their act of passion. 

In the end, Tay decided that she could not afford to lose the freind she had in Jenna. To Tay's amazement and delight, the massive risk she took of suggesting to break up worked out for the better and they had managed to remain best freinds for the crazy roller coaster ride of adulthood without the pressure to get intimate, which was exactly what Tay wanted. 

But over the past couple of months, when We Are The In Crowd slowly started to dominate the mainstream music industry, Tay lost contact with Jenna. She wouldn't return her calls, answer her texts or listen to her voicemails. And Tay had no clue why.

Staring down at her phone with sadness, Tay slowly clicked on the 'edit' button and changed the blondes contact name to simply; 'Jenna'

Whats the point of pretending? 

* Ugh! sorry it took so long to write this chapter, i'm just such a busy bitch but i pinky promise i will try and update this more often. CHOW!*