Fame Comes With A Price (In Editing Process)

This Is The Breakdown

* En route to Berlin, Germany*

The gentle chatter of Tonight Alive's tour bus had lulled Jenna into a hazy daydream. She sat on one of the sofas, staring out of the window, watching the pretty German scenery pass by in a blur. A steady rain had begun outside and a little drops of rain were running down the window. It was these short , peaceful moments that Jenna enjoyed and learned to savor in the midst of the madness of touring. 

Jenna had just fallen asleep when her phone went off. Grumbling in annoyance, Jenna reached into her pocket and pulled out her phone. She felt even more annoyed when the name ' Tay' flashed on her screen. 

 I don't have time for you shit, Tay , thought Jenna as she pressed the decline button and settled back down on the sofa. 

* meanwhile*

No matter how hard she tried, Tay just couldn't get comfortable in her seat. She and Jordan had just taken off from New York airport to Berlin half an hour ago and Jordan had fallen asleep almost as soon as they were in the air. Tay had no such luck and was feeling unbelievably restless. She put her headphones in but after a couple of minutes she found that she wasn't really in the mood. Tay then decided to take a walk up and down the aisle to give her legs a stretch then returned to her seat, feeling as restless as ever. 

Maybe i could wake Jordan up, Tay thought to herself, but resisted since that would probably just piss Jordan off and then he would give her the silent treatment, which is not what she wanted. 

After three agonisigly long hours of sitting about fidgeting, Jordan finally decided to wake up. At this point, Tay felt so happy that she almost kissed him. 

' Oh my gosh, You're finally up! I seriously forgotten how much you like to sleep on planes. I should have taken Mike with me instead.'

Jordan laughed and sat up, rubbing his eyes tiredly. 

' Aww, has little Taylor been feeling loneley while uncle Jordan was having his nap?' 

Tay rolled her eyes and replied;

' I have actually. And stop calling me Taylor!' 

Jordan smirked at this, 

' You liked it when Jenna called you that' 

Jordan let out a small squeek of pain as Tay thumped him on the shoulder. For such a small dweeb, that girl can pack a punch! Thought Jordan to himself. 

' Don't bring that up again!' Tay shout-whispered furiously.

It was Jordan's turn to roll his eyes.

' Tay, do you really have any idea of what your doing? You haven't talked to Jenna for like three months as far as I recall and now you're gonna ask her if she wants to go on tour with us. With you. When she doesn't even want to speak to you.' 

' Look Jordan, I know what I'm doing is crazy, I'm not gonna deny it. But I'm desperate! There no way that i can even begin to explain how shitty I have been feeling at her ignoring me. And what's even worse is that I don't even know what i done but I know that it is bad enough for her to want to not have me in her life.'

' But do you really think suddenly turning up at one of her shows and asking if her band wants to support ours is a good idea? It seems like an asshole thing to do. You might just piss her off even more.'

Tay sighed and leaned back in her seat. As much as she hated to admit it, Jordan was right. This was a stupid idea and a small part of her knew that all along. But Tay kept going along with the idea because an even smaller part of her , right in the very crevice of her mind, made her believe that somehow everything would piece back to normal, that she would somehow manage to mend everything that went wrong in between her and Jenna and they would become freinds again. 

Suddenly, a strong wave of sadness overcame Tay, making her eyes unexpectedly flood with tears. She quickly wiped them, trying to hide from Jordan the fact that she was on the edge of having a mental breakdown.

God! She missed her so much. For these last couple of months Tay had never felt more alone without Jenna there to laugh at her stupid jokes, send her links to crazy conspiracy theories she found on the internet, put make up on for nights out, hold Tay in her arms when she found herself in a dark place or binge watch shows on Netflix in the middle of the night. Suddenly Tay's world seemed quiet and loneley without the radiant glow of Jenna lighting it up.

Tay turned to Jordan, her eyes full of tears.

' I just miss her so much. I love her, Jordan. I love her and I miss her.'  

Nothing else needed to be said as Jordan put his arm around her and pulled her towards him. Tay buried her head in Jordan's shoulder, inhaling the comforting, familiar scent of soap and hair spray. 

' Shhh, It's Ok, Tay, everythings gonna be Ok ,' whispered jordan, lacing his free hand through Tay's fingers and resting his chin on her head. 

For the next six hours Tay and Jordan didn't shift position once. Tay didn't want to let go in the fear that she would crumble into a tiny , unmendable pieces. She needed something to hold on to.  

* So this chapter happened by accident.. i originally wanted to just skip foreward to when Tay and Jenna FINALLY meet but then i just started writing and....  yeah, haha. Sorry if it's bad!

for future refference I'm gonna start planning out my fics before i write them so i have a clearer plotline coz there are some bits that don't make sense in this but it's mostly coz i'm pretty much winging it the whole way through! 

PS  i would like to say a huge thankyou to everybody that has stuck with me and read this fic up to now! I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to read this story, hope i haven't disapointed. ;) *