cool kids never sleep

30

It fucking sucks.
I lost her. I loved her to the fucking moon and back and she loved me. And we're only 15. She shouldn't have to know what it feels like to get her heart broken. Instead of telling her I loved her that night after the game. I was standing behind the bleachers kissing another girl.
Every night you ask me why I vape when I snap you, why I do that shit to my body. I feel like it'll take the pain away. But the nic only last 10 minutes long. I get dizzy. Then I remember what I did to you.
That boy you like. I hope you get him. And I hope he's nothing like me. Because god I don't want you dating someone like me. Girls aren't toys yet boys like me still play them.
And I'm sorry.
Good girls fall for douchey guys and we lead them on because we don't realize what we have until we lose it.

-- what I wish my ex would say to me