cool kids never sleep

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You messed me up.
You really did.
I lay awake at night.
Trying to imagine.
How it could have been.
What I did wrong.
Why did I meet you.
Why did life put you on my path.
For you to just leave again.
And to leave me broken.
What am I supposed to realize?
That I made mistakes?
Or that I get attached too quick?
I don't regret my mistake.
It's the best mistake I've ever made.
But that mistake left me broken.
Fucked up, lost.
What am I supposed to say?
I'm sorry?
Sorry for hoping?
Sorry for feeling joy?
Sorry for thinking it was something good?
Sorry for feeling safe in your arms?
Sorry for ever sending you a message?
I'm sorry for thinking it was a good idea.
I'm sorry I thought life was giving me a break.
I'm sorry for caring.