Violentine- Forever and Always

Your My Flashlight

Summary: Clementine invites Violet and Louis over for a sleepover, but Violet has a secret fear along with her major crush on the girl. Can Clem help her overcome it?

She wants me to come over for a sleepover. ME?! Well, Louis will be there too, but I still can't believe she asked me of all people. I guess Lee and AJ will be out of town for a day or two and said she could have some friends over. But still, she wants me there? I've never really been great at the whole...friends thing. What if I screw up or say something wrong. I don't know if I can do this. But god, I want to spend time with her so badly. Just the way her smile lit up when I told her I'd come, ugh just kill me now. My face felt like it was on fire when she hugged me. And the look Louis gave me. God, if he ever tells her, I swear I'll kill him. UGH! I'm such a fucking mess.

Violet sighed as she set down her book that she was writing in, placing her pencil inside to bookmark her page. The front cover was a dark blue with a large tree taking up most of the page and a heart in the middle of it. The cover sparkled with glitter used to interoperate stars against the deep blue background that seemed to drip down from branches as they intertwined with the sky. It was the journal her mom had bought her to write her thoughts in. After having to witness the death of her grandma, her therapist recommended keeping a journal to write her thoughts and feelings in, saying it might help her to write out her emotions. Violet thought it was stupid at first, but once she had tried it she found that she actually kind of enjoyed it. Writing really seemed to help her cope with a lot of things, things that she couldn't express to other people but needed to get off her chest.

She couldn't believe the weekend was already almost here. Clem had asked her on Monday at lunch, but now it was already Thursday night and tomorrow afternoon she'd be at her house. The week had flown by not leaving Violet much time to freak out, but now she felt like panicking. She was sleeping over at her crush's house. God, she'd never forgive herself if she messed this up. What would Clem think of her?

Violet shook her head to clear her mind of the negative thoughts. She took a deep breath. "Just get through tomorrow. You've got this." She told herself. She reached over and turned off her bedside lamp, then slipped under the covers of her bed. It was harder to fall asleep than she thought it would be, her mind unsettled with thoughts about her crush and how she wished they were more than just friends. But she knew she had fallen asleep at some point because she woke to the sound of her alarm the next morning.

It felt hard to focus all day, Violet also trying her hardest to avoid running into Clem. Plus she felt like she had forgotten to do something important today, but couldn't figure out what. She was freaking out too much. It was just a sleepover, she could handle that. What was there to be afraid of. "You worried your gonna make a fool of yourself in front of Clem?" Louis flashed a smile at her as he sat down across from her throwing his lunch down in front of him.

Violet sent him a glare. "No." But inside her mind was screaming yes.

"Then how come you keep avoiding her?" He shot back at her, a smirk plastered across his face.

Violet crossed her arms. "I'm not!"

"Right, because I always panic and rush down the hallway when my crush is calling my name." Louis mocked her.

"I'm done having this conversation with you!" Violet tried to get him to drop it and turned her head away. She wasn't going to admit that he was right. She had been avoiding Clem and felt guilty about it, but she felt incredibly nervous for later tonight.

"What are we talking about?" Brody asked as she walked up and took a seat next to Violet and Louis along with Marlon, Ruby, and Aasim.

"Violet's been ignoring Clem all day because of her massive crush on her." Louis casually blurted out.