All my stars

III- Eridanus

In the beginning, I played hard to get because I saw how you rolled your eyes at the girls that laughed at everything you said thinking you would like it. When you would ask me how I was, my heart could not wait to spill my emotions onto the floor because it knew you thought my rambling adorable. You were safe. I do not know when you stopped being the first person I wanted to confide in. There came a time when your love language seemed to change. You stopped caring for me in detail and instead preferred your space.

At first, it was understandable but eventually it started to seem like I was in love with someone who did not care. And that made me angry. The way you would go throughout your days like I was invisible. As if you were oblivious to the fact that no matter what you did, you had my heart. Alas, you cannot love someone too much, you can only love the wrong person. Deep down I knew you were not bad for me on most days, but then certain things would happen and I could not help but doubt that affirmation.

What tipped me over the edge is that one time we argued over something that didn't even matter and you said something that would follow me to my grave was my problem with communication. It scared me because you used to understand that although I was quiet, I shared my intimacy through words. It was then that I understood that sometimes it does not matter whether or not I tell people things if they are unwilling to see where I am coming from. I know you cannot expect what you do not communicate but there is no communication in the first place without comprehension. That's what made me think there wasn't hope for us anymore. What's the saying ? Nothing lasts forever. Why would we be the exception to the rule ?

- I did not want us to fall apart.