Let's play a game shall we?
What noise shall wake me up?
Is it my cat?
Is it a bad person breaking into my house?
Usually it's the first option
Regardless of the reason it wakes me up just the same
When I am reassured I still can't sleep
Why am I so afraid?
I toss and I turn
Trying to get comfortable
All the while staying alert
I have stopped listening to scary stories
But I still get scared all the same
I fear for the safety of my family
I fear for the safety of my life
I am afraid that I'll look in the direction of my door
And see a figure standing there
This game is not one you want to play
I never asked to be a contestant
I know it's not just me
I know that there are others who play this sick game too
I wish I can go back to who I was before
But I know I'll never be the same
If I try hard enough I can work with it
And not fight it
Maybe if I pray to God
He'll take my fear away
At least so that I can get a good night's sleep
But I know the next night I'll have to do it all over again
Will it be one in the morning?
Will it be two?
Or three?
Or four?
I never know when my body decides to wake me up
To play the game
I felt inspired to write this because it's been something that's been going on recently. I have stopped watching Mr. Nightmare which is what I believe started this whole ordeal. I plan to speak to my psychiatrist tomorrow about it.
