Why~~

Hold me please (chapter 6)

Jeff's pov

After I gave death day a nickname she got really happy and rolled down the hill through the flowers I just sat there and laughed everyone did then EJ ran down the hill scooped her up and ran towards the lake while she squealed all the way in till he tossed her in then we all sprinted down towards the water and jumped in. After we were done in the water we all went inside and dried off. Later we hung out and played video games. I'm surprised Ben didn't beat her down he actually didn't cheat or anything so I said "yo Ben why are you holding back?" He shrugged and ignored me and continued to mash the buttons. I just laughed and sat down in one of the bean bag chairs and watched. Ben stepped up his game a little. She still beat him. Later we all went to bed all tired but I was woken up by sobs coming from shignami's room I padded to my door and creaked it open and went to her room (it's right next to mine). I cracked the door open and I saw her sitting on her bed sobbing and crying. I couldn't help but go in and comfort her so as I slowly opened her door I pretended to be sleepy and I cleared my throat. Her head shot up and she looked shocked and scared like an animal trapped in a corner. All I saw was a silver shimmer in her hand before she closed her fingers around the small objects in her hand so I said "what's that?" She started to cry again as she unfolded her fingers and dropped the objects. they were the blades from pencil sharpeners and razors. I padded my way towards her bed. I sat down next to her and asked her "where did you find these?" She took a moment and said " these are the blades I used to do this to my self and she pulled up her sweatpants and showed me some scars she didn't tell us about they were in various directions and criss crossing until I realized they spelled out 'good bye' and 'hello' I asked again "where did you find these?" She pointed to her dresser and stated sobbing even more. I walked over there and some more blades materialized my expression darkened and I took all the blades and threw them away. When I got back I sat next to her and hugged her she shocked me with the next thing she said "can I sleep with you? Not like 'THAT' but like actually sleeping." She looked up at me with tears welling in her eyes and I didn't know what to say other than "ok, sure."