Get the regret over

Darling Plastic

Darling Plastic, song by Mizuki Nana
from Album: Rockbound Neighbors

Get the Regret Over
Chapter 6:
Darling Plastic

Running out of time, James skipped the corridor like a freak—running, chasing his lecturer who was going to go oversea for a week. He just finished his paper on the last day. Holding paper on his hand, he suddenly slipped off and fell to the shiny ceramic floor tiles. His documents scattered on the ground, as he didn’t have much time—James swiftly took it without arranged it. James stood up and started sprinting—until he made to the lecturer room.

He’s gone! Mr. Andrew Jones is gone! James freaked out as hell inside his heart, but had not given up yet. He asked Mrs. Melvannya Silt, where’s Mr. Jones? The answer was seriously not fun. He’s already gone 10 minutes ago. Now James was dying of frustration as he walked out from that room. He huffed out the most merciless regret, regretting that he’s not giving out the best for this assignment.

He felt so stupid, limping on the corridor, looking out the glass and saw some people cherished down there with a blueprint of a building. They must be on the middle semester or probably they almost finished their college and graduated this year.

Damn! It was all my fault! Because I was being sensitive and mad with Kendall…I should not let that happen from the first time he came back here. I gotta be focused on my college instead of allowing my idiotic feeling devouring my logic. This is the result of my oversight. I failed to submit my first assignment! J.D. Maslow…seriously, you’re an idiot!

Blaming himself for some minutes, James recognized his effort to get into college should not be stopped yet. This was only the first chapter of his life as student at university. James got to be positive that everything is going to be alright. He can do this, he can handle this situation and overcame hopelessness.

Geesh…there’s no time to be lamented, you have to move along and doubled up your effort next time. Get the regret over and check your to do list. Let’s see if there’s second chance, but now you must take another start. Don’t ever look back…I will straight travel toward my future, because I know my succession lies there.James murmured. He smiled, accepting the sunlight that penetrated the window and spotted his face. The brunette took a step to theleft reaching his classroom to attend a subject according to his schedule.

James D. Maslow

I know…I was the most blameworthy person in this case, because my mouth suddenly slipped off and said such rude thing to Kendall. I was not strong enough to accept his leaving, and I had a thought he betrayed me. Kendall was not exactly betrayed me, otherwise he told me the truth that he must leave me for Jo. In that moment, I was very serene, perhaps like someone that possessed by an angel—I was thinking about his happiness, and every time he was happy, I either way would be glad. Seeing Kendall smiled, it was the most unparalleled thing happened in my life, and I didn’t care about my broken heart—otherwise I have mighty heart. Whenever he shared his story with Jo, I’d always be the one who smiled first, and I’d be the one who gave him advice if he had problem in his romance. I’d do my best to help him out—to make him happy.

But why James?! Why would turn into such childlike person who locked your arrogance inside a secret room and threw away the key to open it? Oh damn! I must find the key and burnt that secret room somewhere in my heart…where’s your goddamn mighty heart?!

Let’s start from the door of admission of guilt…

Yeah, regret always comes late…I supposed I already get over my regret for having such argument with Kendall, it made him looked nasty and I thought it made me forget about him easily. I was wrong; it even pained me even more. I was trapped inside hurricane, spinning around with finding the way to stop. I couldn’t climb till the top and jumped leaped down to the ground. Hurricane…It was so impossible to climb a hurricane. The only way to get out was soaring to the sky with a rocket, because flapping wings would be a pain the ass since there’s no thrust.