Get the regret over

The Hardest Choice

Get the Regret Over
Chapter 9:
The Hardest Choice

James D. Maslow

I want to be your bride, Kendall

Did I really say that foolish thing? I forgot I couldn’t remember at all, I was crying over him, but claimed him as my savior, but did I want to be his bride? In fact, I was the one who rescued him from death twice…I cried for him, I even willed to die for him—for his life. I was a merely fool—he broke my heart, he insulted me—he gave me hideous epithets.

Why would I want to die for him? Because I am still in love with him? Am I really in love with him? Or did I get carried away? I was too flattered because they called me as a Knight?

I have no idea…I am not a knight and Kendall is not my prince…I am not sir James Maslow, I am only James Maslow—a normal guy without any epithet (pretty one is for James Diamond), a college student who chases his dream to be an architect, and a person who tries to forgive the past and get the regret over to be stronger and brand new.

However uncertainty, doubt and anxiety scatter in my brain and they are related to Kendall Schmidt—my former love—the invisible traitor—someone I honestly want to much care for but also the man I’ve claimed as dead feeling at the same time. I love Kendall if he only loved me like he used to…but I keep falling for him no matter how much he have abused me. I want him back…I want to have him at my side—as my prince like before and I’ll promise myself to protect him and cherished him with all my heart.

Kendall…I wonder how you’ve turned me into an idiot?

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I woke up on the hospital and Logan and Carlos were there sleeping while sitting on the chair. I looked around—grabbing my dizzy head—bearing the sting, coughing a lot, making Carlos and Logan woke up. They were showing the mix of bliss and worry within their eyes, relieving my awakening, but question my condition. I honestly did not remember so well what happened to me after saving Kendall.

“James! Thank God! You finally wake up!” Carlos hugged me. Logan held my hand—they’re so warm considering that my body was still cold as an ice. "We've been praying every single day for you!"

"Thank you so much, Logiebear, Carlito..." I smiled. I was so relieved that God saved my life from the death, because I thought it would be ended before I reach my dream. Nothing is better than breath a fresh air of life and having my family on my side. Logan and Carlos are my family too.

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After a month being hospitalized, I was finally back to my college. I had to enrolled in some class, and I had to do double test, because I didn’t attended on this semester exam. I missed my spirit…my spirit to be present at class, listening to lecturer, writing down some notes and doing my assignment eagerly. I also missed the atmosphere of this campus and I longed for Logan to teach me about solar system, constellation, planets, satellite and everything related to astronomy. I did really pine for my college life.

As I climbed the stair toward my class, I passed through the corridor, and looked downward to the glass window. It’s a usual activity from this faculty—I moved my head straight to my way and suddenly my hazel eyes connected to the blue eyes belonged to Beau. I was about saying harsh word inside my heart, but failing since the positive energy filled me this time. He casted his common playful smile and greeted me.

“Hey, Jamie…” He bumped my body. “What’s up?” *cocked his head*

“Hi…” I replied plainly. I was going to walk away and he snatched my arm.