Dark Flower

can't do it again

About an hour passed and I couldn't sleep. I thought Jordan was asleep do I acted like I was asleep. I felt him slowly and carefully get up. But I didn't move. As far as he knew, I was asleep. I heard him grab a bag from the other side of the room and walk out leaving the door barely open. I then realised wat was happening. And it brought me to tears. Now I definitely couldn't sleep. About another hour passed and I heard his footsteps. I tried my best to stop crying and act like o was sleeping again. He closed the door, set down the bag, and layed back down. I knew I was right because he went right to sleep. I wanted to roll over and hug him. But I didn't want to touch him. I bit my lip holding back the tears. I eventually fell asleep.

We both woke up at almost the same time. I wasn't gonna mention last night. It was 9am. 3 hours until the gathering.

"Morning." He said moving a stran of hair behind my ear.

As much as I tried to hide it. I didn't want to talk to him. I felt a mixture of anger and disappointment. I don't know which one was worse. So I ignored him and got dressed. I took off the shirt he gave me to wear and tossed it. Within coincidence it landed covering the bag he took last night. It was a black and gray backpack. Before I put on my shirt I was standing only in my underwear standing topless sense the shirt I was wearing had a built in bra. My back was facing him. He came up behind me and put his arms around me holding my breasts.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"Please don't touch me right now." I said calmly. He moved his hands and backed away. He finished getting dressed and o did too. I put on my makeup. By then it was 11am. By the time we get there we'd be on time. I started walking out when he stopped me. He closed the door. I was back against the door with him in frount of me with his hands on opposite sides of me.

"We're not going until you tell me what's wrong." He told me in a stern voice. I've never seen him this serious.

"Nothing! I don't want to talk about it right now! Now let me leave! Please!" I said. He stared at me up and down.

"Tell me." He said. Obviously growing more impatient. For some reason. I felt... fear. I've never been afraid of someone. Until now. I bit my lip.

"We need to go." I kept telling him.

"I'm gonna ask you one more time. Tell me what's wrong!" He said raising his voice tensing up. But I kept denying to tell him.

"When I say I'm not gonna do something! I'm not gonna do it! Now move!" I declared pushing him away. But he just got mad. He hit me across the face. We both gasped when we realized what just happened. He stared at his hand and looked at me holding my face. Tears started to fill up his eyes.

"Oh my god... I'm so so sorry. I don't know where that came from." He stuttered. You could hear that he was holding back tears from his stuttering. I ran out of his door leaving it wide open.

"You want to know why I was so pissed at you!? And what was wrong!?" I looked at him. "It's because I saw you leave the room last night with a bag to go get high!!!" I yelled. He looked down. I didn't even realize that Jason was right down the hallway. I ran out the frount door. Everything was blurry from the tears filling my eyes. After running one block my legs gave out. I called my mom my hands shaking. I told her where I was and asked if she could pick me up. Within less that a minute her car pulled up. I got in.

"Oh my god! What's wrong!?" My mom asked.

"Jordan and I are through." That's all I could get out. I felt my phone keep vibrating. "I just wanna go home and stay in my room." I added.

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked. I knew that I couldn't.

"No. I just want to be alone." I answered.