If I Could I Would [boyxboy]

Chapter Eight

I’m running my fingers over my lips, lingering in the moment.

I walk into my house, not even sure if it’s mine.

I walk up the stairs in a haze and somehow end up on my bed.

I sit there for idk how long and just linger.

I play it over and over in my head.

Him holding me, him not killing me, and him kissing me.

I feel warm waves rush over me every time I think of it.

I can’t do anything but sit here, I’m paralyzed and flustered.

I’m so high right now nothing could take me out, but something does.

My phone is buzzing and of course it’s Vienna.

I answer it with a flustered “hello.”

“Hey, what’s up sugar lips?” She says sounding sensual.

I’m tuned out thinking of him calling me sugar lips. I can’t stop a smile from gracing my face.

"Hello?" She says panicked.

"Hey, sorry I’m kind of out of it."

"Oh, OK wierdo! But I called to see if you finished the lab yet?" She asks.

"Shit! No!" I say remembering that I have a life outside of this moment!

"Damn, I have to start NOW!"

"Ok. Well call me when you’re done slacker." She says blowing me kisses goodbye.

It’s late so I have been sitting here for hours!

I try to do my lab, but every time I try not to think of it I do.

His lips were so soft and I wanted more.

No, shit lab first him second!

“Hmm?” I mutter opening my sleepy eyes.

I don’t know when I fell asleep but by the looks of it I got my lab done.

Wow, my bed was ten steps away so I must have passed out.

I pack up stuff noticing I have 10 mins to catch the bus, the late one.

I’m running around trying to brush my teeth, put on deodorant, get clothe on, wash my face, and make it downstairs.

Where was my mother? Why didn’t she wake me? What the heck?

I make it to the kitchen and see a small note on the counter. No time to read so grab and run. I just catch the late bus and make it to school.

Though I look like I just walked off the street I made it and handed in my lab. I pray to God that it is one of those miracle lab reports.

I can finally breathe and get back to pleasure. Like the beautiful boy sitting diagonal from me. Well, behind my best friend beside me. Before I get to him, I read my note from Mom.

“Have an early meeting, have a good day. Mom”

Of course, the day I needed her most she had an early morning. I put the note back relax.

I look at him and he is so concentrated on the board, so he doesn’t see me.

I see him though, that dirty blonde hair that falls just right. I want to run my hands through it forever. I think I might get to today. Since I declined him yesterday, I’m going to ask him to hang today.

It’s finally lunch and he sits with us. I’m trying be cool by just being relaxed but my heart is beating 100 miles per minute. Matt is telling us about his women and were so interested because she sounds perfect, a little too perfect actually. But I don’t doubt him because he is my boy.

Lunch is almost over and I decide it would be a good time now.

"Hey, so I was wondering if you want to hang out today." I ask sounding super rehearsed.  

“Hang out?” Vienna and Matt say at the same time.

"Shit." I say under my breath.

[sorry i'm seriously the worst, i've just been so busy. not an excuse, but school is hard. still, hey i'm back, so this one is pretty tame but watch out. share, vote, and comment my smutty friends]