You and I

Chpt.29 Fight

A/N title says it all

Lydia's P.O.V

I made it to James house and went in.He was on the phone talking to I don't know who And I walked over to him.He smiled and then had a worried look on his face he continued,

"Mark are you drunk?"

I felt my heart shatter even more now one he was talking to Mark and two Mark was drunk he actually got drunk Mark wouldn't do that I need to talk to him.

The kept talking and the more they talked the more worried I got I heard everything he was as heart broken as me.I grabbed from James.

"Mark?" I asked

He was silent for a while then J heard sobs and a door open then he hung up.I stared at the phone in disbelief, he did not get drunk because of this maybe I should have let him explain I fucked up now he's drunk and I need to see him.

James didn't say anything he rubbed my back as I cried then pulled me in for a hug.If anyone knew me as good as Mark did it would be James.

"Let him sober up then talk to him"James soothing voice caed me down.

I knew James could help me so that's why I came to him.He told me I could sleep in his room as he slept in the living room I went and cried till morning.Eventually I fell asleep around five.

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I opened eyes and saw our bed room.Mark was right next to me sleeping he looked tired.I got up and made breakfast as I was making eggs I felt those strong arms around my waist.

"Morning beautiful" his raspy morning voice always works me up.Its to much for me!

"Morning"

"What are you doing"

"What does it look like making you food!"

"Thanks babe" he squeezed me tighter and started to kiss down my neck to my shoulder.

I burned my hand on the stove as he laughed then he said,

"Wake up wake up...Lydia wake up!"

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I opened my eyes and saw I was in James room and he was shaking me.It was a dream...I miss him so much I need to talk to him.

"What happened?"

"Well your phone has been ringing non-stop and you screamed." He had a worried look on his face as he ran his hand through his hair.

"I need him"

"I know you do eat and I'll take you since you still seem sleepy even though it 3:45 in the afternoon" he laughed.

"What I was out for that long?!" I yelled.

He laughed and said,"yeah you were I got a little worried"

We laughed and got up.We ate food and talked.James changed in the best way,but I only want Mark and he knows that.James is like a best friend to me and I love him for that.

"Take me to my house please"

"Of course" he smiled.

I had on sweats with a long sleeved black shirt.I didn't even noticed I was wearing it till we were halfway there.We were silent the whole ride till we got there.

"Thank you James really"

He smiled and said,"Of course I'll do anything for you"

We hugged then I watched as he drove off.I let out a long breath and walked in and saw the door already half open.

I gasped as I saw the house.Donnie was passed out on the couch hugging Mark.Mark looks so horrible he had dry tear stains and reeked of alcohol.The coffee table was flipped over and there was a hole in the wall. His eyes slowly opened as I shook him.He looked around and then noticed me.

He started to cry and I did too.He got up and walked past me he popped two pills in his mouth and some chugged water down.He looked over at me and didn't say anything.He seemed mad and still a little drunk but sobering up.

"What the hell" he said.

"What?"

"You left me worried all night about you and then come back in the fucking afternoon!" He raised his voice.

"I left for a reason!" I raised my voice too.

"What reason was that huh just cause you saw me and Sarah kissing doesn't mean Shit okay, trust me Lydia I know it looked bad but she came onto me she jumped on me and you didn't even let me explain to you what the hell happened you just left me alone heartbroken!" he yelled in my face making me back up.

I saw the anger in his eyes and smelled the lingering alcohol in his breath.

"Mark I know okay and I'm sorry,I'm sorry I should have let you explain but be honest if that was me you would have done the same thing and I cried and cried all night because of you I was worried too because you got drunk only god knows what you did because look at the damn house!"

"IM NOT THE ONE WHO WENT AND FUCKED HER DAMN EX JUST BECAUSE I FUCKED UP NO I DIDNT WANT HER TO KISS ME AND I DIDNT WANT YOU TO LEAVE BUT YOU DID YOU LEFT ME AND WENT TO JAMES!"

"I DIDNT FUCK JAMES!JAMES TOOK CARE OF ME WHILE YOU WERE GETTING DRUNK FOR NO REASON YES I LEFT AND WENT TO JAMES ONLY BECAUSE I NEEDED SOMEONE AND HE WAS THERE ALISON WASN'T DAVE WASN'T AND WHAT WAS I SUPPOSE TO DO CALL UP DONNIE?! NO SO DON'T YELL AT ME!"

"STOP YELLING AT ME" he pushed me to the wall and my back was on fire.

"AH SHIT MARK!WHY ARE YOU SO UPSET!"

"MARK?" Donnie yelled and helped me up.

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!"he yelled me and Donnie were shocked and then soften when he saw how much pain I was in.

"Lydia I'm sorry I didn't mean to I-I" he started to cry.

I motioned for Donnie to leave us alone for a while and he nodded.Mark said he loved me.Mark loves me and I think I love him. I was heartbroken just as much as he was and I feel horrible.

I walked over to him and hugged him he was shocked then quickly hugged me.He squeezed me and kept crying we slowly dropped to the floor.Still holding each other we cried in each others arms.

"I love you Lydia"Mark whispered in my ear.

"I love you too" I said back.

He let out a sigh of relief and kissed me it was different than any kiss we ever had.It was like those mind blowing ones you see in movies.There were sparks flying everywhere and it felt like we were the only people in the world.