"I love you too," I tell my mom, crying.
Today is not going good at all. My mom just told me she's not gonna make it to my graduation. The one call I get from her is bad news. I guess David didn't tell her about what happened because she didn't yell at me for being inconsiderate and making poor decisions.
Plus I haven't seen Ki since Friday. It's Monday night.
"Have you talked to him?" I ask Landon.
"I already told you no, and it's gonna be the same answer," he groans.
"Don't worry about him Malayah, he's gonna come around," Tessa tells me. I just nod my head.
"Come on, I gotta be there at 8:00," Landon tells us. Landon has a show.
Skies dropped me off on Friday at the house and drove off. I don't know why. I couldn't even tell if he was mad or upset.
"We're leaving Malayah," Landon says.
"Okay," I whisper. I don't wanna be here by myself but I also don't wanna go with them. There's gonna be too many people.
"I love you bestie," Tessa says giving me a hug.
"I love you too," I say, hugging her back.
I watch as they walk out the house. I go back to my room. Or Kimetrius room. Or our room. I don't know what to call it. I go into his closet and grab one of his shirts. It still smells like him. I take off my school clothes and put it on. It's only 7:32 but I'm so worn out. I turn off the light and lay my head down.
***
"Malayah calm down!" My dad yell.
"No! I don't want to!" I yell back.
"Malayah you have to baby, I'm sorry but you have to," he tells me. I start kicking the back of the seat.
"No! No! No!" I scream.
"Malayah! Stop!" My dad yells. Turning around trying to stop me.
"Daddy! Look!" I scream. A car is coming right for us. My dad honks the horn but it doesn't help.
The car flips around and we end up upside down.
"Daddy? What happened?" I ask, crying.
"It's okay baby," My dad says, blood coming down the side of his head.
"Daddy I'm hurting," I tell him, still crying.
"It's okay Malayah, just know that I love you," he says.
"I love you too Daddy," I tell him. He doesn't say anything after that.
"Daddy?" I call his name. But no answer.
"Daddy?" I call again. Still no answer.
"Daddy!" I start to panic.
***
"Malayah wake the fuck up!"
I open my eyes to see Kimetrius. I sit up and wipe the tears from off my eyes that I know are there.
"What are you doing here?" I ask him.
"I live here, remember?" he states.
"You know what I meant Kimetrius," I say, crossing my arms.
"I don't know why you mad at me, I told you I love you and you blew me off," he says. I can tell he's still hurt.
"I'm sorry Kimetrius, you just caught me off guard but that doesn't give you the right to just disappear on me," I tell him.
"Ya know what, fuck you Malayah!" He snaps. I jump at his voice.
"What did I do?!" I yell at him.
"You still haven't told me you loved me back Malayah. It's hard fa me to tell somebody I love them and you took it fa a grain of salt!" He yells back.
I just look at him.
"Why won't you just admit you love me back!" He yells.
"Because I'm afraid to love you!" I scream at him. I can feel my eyes start to tear up.
"I'm afraid to love again Kimetrius. I loved Chris and he cheated on me. I fell for him too quickly. I'm afraid of getting that same pain I got when I saw him kissing sum other girl," I say sobbing.
"I just met you Kimetrius and I feel like we are going too fast, but I really like you so I want to make this work. How do I know that I'm in love with you or the feeling? How do I know that you're not in love with me but just in love with the feeling I give you?"
"I do love you Malayah, I know I do." Is all he said.
"Well I don't love you Kimetrius, I love the feeling you give me every time I see you or hear your name or the feeling the that you give me when you touch me," I tells him.
I look up at him. I can see the hurt in his eyes. But I'm not trying to hurt him I'm trying to be honest.
"When you were gone, I realized how much I need you. I want to get to the point where I can say I love you and it's not forced Kimetrius. I know you're hurt but I'm doing this because I want you forever. I want you to be my first and last of everything because when I was with Chris, I never felt like this," I say, crying.
"You just gotta be patient with me Kimetrius," I whisper.
"Well I'm willing to wait Malayah," he says after a few minutes, "I'm not gonna lie, it hurts Malayah, but I'm willing to do anything just for you to say you love me back."
