Stay || Martinus G ||

Part 8

-ALINA FINALLY YOU ANSWERED...ARE YOU OKAY?

-Yeah martinus...Dont worry. I am fine. Something happened and I couldn't be at the park..I forgot to tell you that

-You forgot? I was waiting for a whole hour... I searched for you in your house but nobody was here. I called you so many times...I sent u messages. You saw them and you never answered me. And now I am alone outside with wet clothes cause it's raining. And you just forgot?

His words hit me hard. He doesnt sound mad...he sounds dissapointed and sad. More and more tears are running on my cheeks but I try to keep my voice stable cause I dont want him to understand.

-I know... My bad...I forgot about it...I cant do anything now. I dont have more time Martinus..I have to go.

I close the phone before he answers. My mum looks me from the small mirror in the middle of the front part of the car. She looks worried but I just crack a smile at her. My brother is next to me and he seems really mad

-You haven't told him?

-Tell him what?

-About leukemia Alina

-No

-You are together for two weeks and he doesn't know anything

-We aren't together...Its weird. I want him to be happy..okay?

-Ohh yeah? Cause I understood that right now he is not happy. He is worried. But if he knew everything it would be easier

-No no...thats not true. He would be even more worried.

-Its like you are blind. You make both sad. Look at you and imagine him. Alina why you dont understand it? You deserve a good boyrfriend..Leukemia cant hold you back.

-Can you please stop? I do this for him. Would you like to see your girlfriend die day to day? Would you like to see her in the hospital with 10 doctors trying to find something to save her? Would you like to stay in home the most times cause she maybe must not be tired. Would you? Tell me.

-Alina...

-Thats all you can say...So you better think better... YOU criticise me but you haven't put yourself in my place.

I say and I put my earphone. James Arthur will be my escape again. Back to classic. He didnt talk to me again after this. I know that maybe I shouldn't shout at him like this...but I really dont know what to do. Everything is fallin apart..

Martinus Pov

She just forgot? And she doesn't have enough time? Everyone else would be mad but I am just sad and worried. I am walking back home not caring for the rain cause right now it's the best thing that has happened. I am so confused. I am sure that something has happened cause she is not okay from the morning. And when I asked her earlier about the park she seemed unsure.

I get into my house going straight to my room.

"Martinus come to eat with us" my mum said.

"I am not hungry" I answered and closed my door.

I know her and she would never forget to tell me something like this. Maybe I did something wrong. I dont know. I am lost in my thoughts and I dont hear my mun who just came in my room.

-Martinus how are you?

-Emm I am fine..Everything is okay

-Martinus you can tell me everything...Like when you were 8 years old. You tell me, I listen and if I can help you I do it

-Mum...It's just...It's just a bad day

-Why? What happened?

We both sit in the bed and I really feel the need to tell it to someone. All my thoughts burtst inside me and I start crying without understanding it.

-Its a girl...and I love her so much. Mum I mean it that I love her. She is so special and unique. She is beautiful, smart, she makes me smile. I feel so good when I am around her. She can understand me in many things. I just feel that kind of connection that I have never felt before. But today she was not okay. She was hugging me again and again like it was the last time she was hugging me. And now we had a date in the park like every Friday. I was waiting for her but she never came. And when she answered one of my calls she said she cant come and she forgot to tell me this.

I cant see her clearly cause my eyes are blurred because of tears. She huggs me tight and I do the same. I needed that.

-Martinus...I know you and I can understand you. All this time I can understand that you are in love. You dont have to worry..I am sure that she will explain you what happened.

-Mum you dont get it...I know her and I am sure that something bad has happened...she just dont want to tell me. Maybe I did something wrong...maybe she is not okay and she doesnt want to worry me. She always do that. She doesnt want others to know her pain.

-Shhhh...Don't think too much. Sleep and tomorrow you will call her and you will ask her to go out and talk.

-Mum...I dont want to lose her

-I know... I am sure that everything will be fine

She kiss my forehead and she stand up walking to the door. Before she close it behind her I say

-Mum...

-Yeah?

-Thank you

She smiles and she close the door. She really calmed me down. I don't really have the power to change clothes so I just lay and sleep. Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

Alina Pov

Another one night in a hospital bed. I cant sleep. I am not so anxious for tomorrow's surgery. I just don't know what to do with Martinus.

My decision doesn't change...I have to get out of his life. But I have to do it like he wants it. Complicated, painful but it must be like this.

I close my eyes trying to sleep but all the memories with him are coming on my mind. It's my fault from the start.

Martinus Pov

I wake up and I catch my phone. Some notifications from instagram and a message.

Karoline: Goodmorning hotiee

This girl is so annoying. I call Alina to tell her go out and talk. But she is not answering. I see what time it is but its almost 11. So she can't sleep.

I call her again and again. I have called her over 20 times but nothing. That means that I was right... I start to get worried more and more every second. I need answers. Something pops up in my mind and I change quickly clothes. When I get ready I leave from the house.

Ten minutes later I am outside Karolines house ringing her bell. She opens the door and she smirks

-Ohh Gunnarsen...It seems that you liked my message

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