Shadows

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Camryn's P.O.V.

I flopped onto my bed staring at my ceiling, the silence inside my room was killing me, seriously, lots of people say that they enjoy being in peace and quiet, and I get it, sometimes its great, but god! This was gonna drive me crazy. I pulled out one of my notebooks, but this one was black leather, with lineless pages, meaning I could write if I wanted or draw. I took out a black thin marker and started drawing random crying eyes, but then on the next page I started drawing a brick wall, with a huge hole in the middle, and through the hole was just plain brightness.

But then the silence started making me go mad, so I began to write.

"the silence is so loud its deafening", I wrote it nice and neat in a corner of a page then I drew a girl in the corner hugging her knees, surrounded by nothing, but that's the thing nothingness and silence are the perfect mix that brings you to insanity.

I put my notebook away, under my bed and quickly changed into my pj's, then digging myself into my bed.
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"go stay in the closet honey, everything will be okay" mommy says

"but mommy, where is daddy?" I said looking up at her, noticing the tears in her eyes, "he is coming right back, he is just visiting some friends"

"I need you to stay here, no matter what, don't move okay honey?" she says looking into my eyes, "okay mommy"

She closes the door and I hear her footsteps as she walks away. I hug my knees, then I hear the shattering of glass.

"mommy" I whispered

"please leave! my husband is not here!" I hear my mommy shout

"oh don't fuck with me, I guess you'll do for the boss, we can have some fun" said a man, uh oh he was using mean words.

I heard footsteps in the room, I got really scared and through some clothes on myself "Cam, Camryn" I heard my big brother

I opened the closet door "Blake, im in here" he came and sat next to me.

"whats going on?" I asked

"Dad decided to leave and not tell his friends where he went"

"SOMEONE HELP!" I heard mommy scream, I ran out of the closet and down to the kitchen door I opened it a little, but mommy wasn't there anymore.

"who's there?!" a man screamed

"Blake help me!" I whispered, he ran down to me

"oh lookey who's here" the man said, your so pretty, he said grabbing my arms "but your too pretty", one of his big friends took Blake away and covered his mouth

The man took out a big knife, lifted my shirt and cut at my ribs

"owwwwwwwwwww! Mommy! Daddy! HELP" I cried

Suddenly I woke up, I hugged my knees, the tears running down my face, fuck man, not another dream. The thing is I have had such a fucked up past that I don't get nightmares about ghost or zombies or whatever, I get memories and not the good one, not that there were many. I got out of bed noticing the sun was already out, checked the clock, it was already 5:30 am, damn I could've slept for another hour another hour of memories I reminded myself, I took out my outfit, I grabbed my towel and quickly went to the bathroom down the hall. I washed my hair, various times with my favorite vanilla and coconut shampoo; I shaved and then just stood under the water for a while.

I dried off and speed walked to my room, right before I was going to go in, the same curly haired man whore I saw yesterday came out of a room, or should I say sneaked out from a room. I shook my head and opened my door.

"hey gorgeous, next time say hi, don't just stand and stare its rude" he said and walked off.

"asshole" I murmured and went into my room.

I slipped on my black with white polka dotted shirt, black stalkings, my shorts and even put on a hat, with matching black boots. I grabbed my book bag and phone and walked out. Seeing it was only seven and class didn't start till eight I walked over to a bench and started drawing in my sketchbook. There was this really nice big tree in front of me. So I drew that, then I felt someone sit next to me

"didn't know that you drew beautiful" said the dumbass with nice hair

"wow, and I didn't know you were so annoying" I said quietly

"what did you just say" he said "the nerd talks" he chuckled to himself

I felt the heat rise in my face, but I sure as hell wasn't blushing, fuck I forgot to take my pills.

"I got to go" I said I quickly shoved my book in my book bag and rushed to the nearest bathroom. I started pulling out the pills, right when I got to the door.

"hey, don't leave I was just having some fun" he pulled my arm, which caused me to drop the pill bottle, thank god it was still closed.

"whats this?" he asked picking up the bottle then his eyes widened and he looked up at me

I snatched the bottle out of his hands "none of your business"

I ran into the bathroom, quickly swallowing two pills, without these my anxiety would get too high and my anger would go out of control.

***

It was finally time for lunch, I didn't have much appetite, weirdly, so I sat by myself in a table and started sketching again. This time I started drawing my mom, at least what I could remember of her.

"that's beautiful" said Niall, I jumped

"geez you almost gave me a heart attack" I said "thanks though"

"who is that?" he said chuckling at how scared I got

"uh, its my mom" I said

"well I can see where you get your good looks from" he says smiling

"clever" I say then close my book

"hey look the whore with glasses is hanging out with Niall" says the bitch, whom I found outs name is Amber

"oh be quiet Amber, the only whore here is you, except you're not wearing any glasses, you're just wearing oh look nothing" Nialls says

Amber's mouth drops and she walks away stupidly

"thanks" I say to Niall looking down.

"hey don't let her get you down, okay?"

"okay" just keep up the shy girl act and don't give anything away