Dear Kaori Miyazono, to the person who always Lie

Truth

Chaos. It was chaos when Kosei, Tsubaki, and Watari arrived in the hospital. Kaori is missing. Hiro and Akane are panicking. The doctors even asked some nurses to find Kaori.

'Do you want to leave us that much?!'

The three of them also helped to find their friend. It is already night but they still haven't found Kaori.

Kosei wanted to scream. He can't explain what he feels. He already went to every place he went with Kaori before but no luck. His feet feel numb because of running but he just can't give up. He can't give up thinking that the moment he stops searching for her, is the moment he accepts that he will never be able to see Kaori's smile again.

Then Kosei remembers, how Kaori loves the school at night, how they went to school at night for nothing. With a fear inside his heart, he runs faster to go to school. Kosei looked for Kaori everywhere in the school but he was unable to find even her shadow. The last place was the rooftop and if she's not there then he will move to somewhere else and look for her. He opened the rooftop door with such force and the scenario makes his heart beating stop.

Kaori is standing dangerously near the edge and one wrong move, Kaori will fall. She is behind the fence and he did not even know how she safely climbs over there. Kosei cautiously went closer, he was about to send a message to his friends that he is in the school rooftop and already found Kaori but he held his breath when Kaori turned around and face him with an unfamiliar smile, her one hand is holding on the fence.

"Kao---"

"Arima Kosei" he was interrupted when Kaori called him. Her emotionless eyes earlier are now clouded with sorrow. He felt pain in his heart seeing such emotion dancing in her eyes. "Sorry. You must be disappointed with me right?" she smiled sheepishly.

"No. Never." He answered without hesitation. Kosei wants to say that he is most disappointed to himself.

"You are really an innocent person..." she smiled, "That is one of the reasons why I like you," she added

Kosei dreamt to hear those words from Kaori. He never expected that hearing those words right now brings nothing but pain for Kosei. No. He cannot accept those words.

She's saying that as if this is the last time.

Kosei looked to her eyes, "You need to live.. you have to live." he almost whispered.

She returned the intense stare, she saw the tear that fell from his eyes but she can't do anything, she avoided his gaze and Kosei feels his heartbreak into pieces. Slowly.

"You can be alive. I know you can. Live, please..." he sniffed, "I beg you, live." his voice stern as he became desperate to persuade her,

"But...." she started, she finally decided to look into his eyes, Kosei's eyes that is full of life, full of color.

He waited for her answer but he knows that she's hesitating and he's scared to know why,

"But what?" he prompted

She smiled, a bitter one, "but... I don't want to live anymore.." she whispered, her voice sounds so tired, her eyes look so dead.

And as a lone tear fell from her eye, he closed his eyes as he felt his world crumble, asking the heavens for answers.

'Why is this happening? We were happy. We are too young. God, she's too young.'

Kosei wants to blame the heavens. He wants to blame someone. Moreover, he wants to blame himself for not noticing the signs that she's suffering. He had so much chance to save her yet he was afraid to know the truth. He purposely became ignorant to the truth while giving reasons such as he wants Kaori to open up first or nonsense reasons.