Goodbye Letters

Clint Barton

Clint,

Hey buddy, I hope that when you read this you can be in home with your family. After all, I’m pretty sure they all are coming back after this.

I know it’s not going to be easy Clint. Trust me, even just writing this I feel like I hadn’t completely grasped the idea of leaving all of you. That I’m not going to see you again. But I’m in peace. Because I know that this is the least that I can do for you after everything that you did for me.

You saved me. You gave me something that no one had giving me before. You gave me a chance. You believed in me. If I’m alive in this moment is thanks to you, Clint. I owe you my life.

And now I’m only returning the favor.

You were the first person that I trusted. The first person that became family. And now look at us, how far we have lived.

You taught me that everyone deserves a second chance. And that is what I’m doing now. I’m giving you a second chance. To redeem yourself, to enjoy your family. They need you and you need them.

Please, tell Laura and the kids that I love them, that they are one of the best people I know. They gave me a home and make me a part of their family without a doubt and you don’t even began to imagine how much impact that fact had in my life.

I wouldn't have know what love was if it wasn't for you, for your family. I owe you my life. Because I didn't know that I could make decisions, that I had the power to do what I wanted with my life.

You gave me that chance, the chance of living. Of knowing the world outside the red room.

I remember so clearly that day, the day you extended your hand for me. The day I choose freedom. The day I became a human again.

I wasn't the robot they had programmed anymore. I wasn't a puppet.

I was Natasha Romanoff.

And there wouldn't be a Natasha Romanoff without a Clint Barton.

So, yes Clint, I think since you were the one that teach me that I could take my own decisions, this one is totally on me.

Tell the kids that their auntie Nat did this for them. So they can grow and live their lives. Tell Lila to keep being the strong girl that I know she is, and Cooper that he is one of the bravest boys that I had the pleasure to know.

And please, remember Nathaniel that he betray me by not being a girl, but he sure as hell is going to live being named after one of the persons that loved him the most.

I am going to give you and order. And you’re going to fulfill it everyday that you keep breathing.

Don’t blame yourself. This wasn’t your fault. You couldn’t have done anything.

I made a choice. It was my own choice.

And even though I know it’s not going to be easy forget whatever we might live there you and I both do what was needed. For your family, for mine and for everyone that didn’t have the chance to make a choice that day.

I can make a choice, I’m making a choice and it’s not your fault. Just like I make my choice the day you saved me,
I'm choosing to save you now.

Please, I don’t want you to live the rest of your life with regrets. Do it for me. Don't make me regret giving you this chance. You deserve your second chance just as I had mine. You give it to me so now I'm giving it to you. We both deserved it. I know that now. We both do.

Take care of everyone and let them take care of you. Please, look after James, I know it may be painful to see him but he needs everyone that he can have. You know that he is my little miracle after all.

You will always have me. I will always be your best friend. And, of course we will always have Budapest.

You saved my life once. Now I’m saving yours.

Don’t let the sacrifice die.

Live your life hawkeye,

Nat.