Socket still bares the guilt from his sister being hurt years ago, he just doesn't seem to be able to get passed it. He wouldn't have joined the Broken Demons if it weren't for what happened, and while Evie now lives a normal life, Socket has yet to...
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"Sorry I'm not good company today." I sigh as I realise I've missed what they Evie and Immy were talking about.
"It's ok, we're talking about a triple date." Imelda smiles
"Now Socket can bring you to my family dinners and Imelda and Ice can come too." Evie says
"I'm excited for the gender reveal party next week, any guesses?" Evie asks
"I think it's a boy, just because my belly has blown up so much more than it did with Isla, but Ice wants another girl." Imelda smiles
"Reaper and I have decided we want another baby." Evie says
"Oh that's great! So exciting!" Imelda replies
"When are you jumping on the baby train?" Imelda asks Adeline
"Oh hell no." She laughs "Between my nieces and nephews in Texas and the club kids I get enough love."
"You and Doc would make cute babies." Evie replies
"Probably but it would mean I'd have to give up my career and I don't think Doc could handle a baby just yet." She shrugs
"Look at Scarlett trying to race me, like Bernadette can't kick her ass." Adeline smirks as we suddenly speed up. Scarlett's car comes up beside us as Adeline and Scarlett give each other the finger. These girls are so fun, I hope they can pull my head out of my ass, because last night I just couldn't settle, and I don't know what to say to Kit.
"So that's why you didn't want to take my minivan." Cordelia says as we climb out of the cars outside the salon
"Just having some fun." Scarlett shrugs as she lifts Skye's wheelchair out of her trunk and Indigo climbs out of the back.
"Hey girls!" Izzy greets us as we enter the salon "I cleared all my appointments so you can have whatever you want."
All I want is a damn shower, but a few of my nails got broken, so I guess a manicure, before I go home and shower. Eugh home, I haven't stayed there since the first night I saw Vince, plus my fucking mother is still there, I need to get her gone.
"Hey, need to get re-clawed." Scarlett smiles as she sits beside me.
"How you holding up?" She asks, I really don't want to talk about it
"Fine." I reply
"Did Cordelia or Imelda ever tell you what happened to me?" She asks and I shake my head
"My moms drug dealer raped me and when I ran he followed, when I fell for Knuckles he kidnapped me, the club rescued me." She explains
"But I wasn't...."
"Don't do that." She cuts in "Don't put down what was horrific and traumatic regardless of how it ended. You went through something no woman should have to and yet we do. And we survive and we learn to live with it. It won't come overnight but I promise it will get better."
"Besides, you have Socket, Imelda and all us girls, the club is your family." She says placing her free hand on my shoulder.
"Thank you." I reply
"Anytime. We're all here and anything you need that'll help, we'll do." She smiles.
After that the girls went to gossiping and laughing and I tried my best to keep up, but I kept finding myself drifting away. After having my nails done and Izzy doing my hair we've spent almost the whole day at the salon before Adeline is driving us back to the clubhouse.
"What do you want to do tomorrow? I can come over and we can spend the day watching crappy TV if you like?" Imelda asks as Adeline pulls up outside the clubhouse
"Ok." I nod. I need to get in the shower. I walk through the clubhouse and straight up to Kits room. As soon as the door closes I begin stripping off my clothes
"Hey." Kit says coming out of the bathroom and I quickly grab my shirt to cover myself.
"I didn't realise you were here." I say as he steps towards me. He takes my hand and guides me to the bathroom, the tub filled and I can smell the lavender, candles scattered around the room and a bottle of wine with a glass on the edge of the tub.
"You did this for me?" I say looking back at him and he nods
"Don't hide from me, when I say I love you I mean all of you." He says as he tugs my shirt from my hands and it falls to the floor. I let him remove the rest of my clothes and I can't miss the flicker of anger in his eyes when he sees the full extent of what Vince did. I saw it this morning, the bite on the side of my breast, out of the marble of bruising it stands out like a beacon.
I watch as he takes off his clothes before he takes my hand and helps me into the tub
"You probably shouldn't get that wet." I say pointing to the gunshot wound on his leg
"I don't care, I just want to relax with you for a while." He shrugs before climbing in behind me. Once I'm settled on his lap he pours me a glass of wine and I take a long sip before relaxing back against his chest.
"A lot has happened these past few days, I know we both suck at talking but I think we should." He says, the last thing I want to do is talk, I just want to sleep, or scrub a few layers of skin off.
"When I got arrested I thought it was for something I did." He says "I love you and want you by my side, but I want you to hear it from me, if it comes up in the future."
I don't look back at him, only nod
"The four men that tortured my sister, I killed them, no one else, me I killed them all." He explains "and today I killed Vince."
"Good." I reply before emptying and refilling my wine glass. The man I'm in love with has just told me he has murdered five people, maybe there are more, and I don't feel anything. Maybe I'm fucked up, maybe it'll freak me out another day, but one of those men almost broke me, so it's almost good news.
"You're not scared of me now you know?" He asks and I shake my head
"I was at the hospital with your sister, the police had no clue who hurt her they got the justice they deserve. After my arrest and what happened yesterday I have little to no faith in the law, they never would've convicted Vince, he would've bought his freedom and I would've spent the rest of my life waiting for him to come back for me. Besides, I'm a murderer too, I killed detective Ricci." I reply.
"The car crash killed him, the official report says he swerved to miss an animal and crashed." Kit replies and I almost laugh
"I made him swerve by wrapping my seatbelt around his neck, I caused the crash, I killed him." I reply
"You're wrong, but I'll let it go." He shrugs. He tries to wrap his arms around me, but I push them away, I want him to hold me, but I don't at the same time, I just, I don't feel clean.
"Don't worry about upsetting me, if you don't want me to touch you tell me, I understand Nat." He says as he rests his arms on the side of the tub
"It's not you, I want you, I just... I still feel him on me. I keep showering and it won't go." I feel tears threatening to fall but I fucking hate crying
"I still mean what I said, I love you Kit." I whisper. I watch as he grabs a wash cloth and soap from the side
"I love you Nat, you're my woman, I'm your man, I'm the only person who's ever going to touch you again, you'll only feel my touch." He assures me as he begins to wash my shoulders and my neck. He rinses the soap from my shoulder and I feel his lips brush gently against the skin as a tear rolls down my cheek
"You need me to stop?" He asks but I shake my head
"Please, keep going." I whimper and he does. He washes my whole body, removing Vinces touch and replacing it with his.
