Can't Go On Without You

A New Start

KATARA

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Shut up ! Shut up !

Just get out of my head !

I'm begging my mind to stop remembering his voice...

What he told me.

What he used to whisper to me...

All these sweet things he would always do for me...

These habits we had, just the two of us...

When I woke up this morning, the bed was empty...

No unexpected hickeys on my body...

No heart shaped word written on my bedside table...

You were gone.

But that's what I needed.

I couldn't stand you anymore !

I don't need you in my life !

You weren't the same anymore...

You were here, but you were gone.

Where was my Aang ?

Where was the man I had always loved ?

Where were you..

I'm seating alone on the sofa, staring at the blank wall...

Waiting for the doorbell to ring,

Waiting for a knock...

Waiting for a phone call...

Waiting for anything !

A sign ! A voice ! Something !

But what was I hoping for anyway

Sokka was with Suki,

Toph was at her school,

Zuko was now FireLord,

And you...

You.. Where were you ?

I couldn't tell.

And actually I couldn't care less.

I don't care about you.

But in my heart, I do..

I do love you...

I always had...

But I hate you so much.

WHAT AM I SAYING ?

How could I love someone more than I hate him ?

I was despising him reluctantly,

Not to admit to myself that I still loved him...

I was vanquished by my own...

I had to surrender and state the obvious..

I-I still love you, Aang...

No matter who you are, Avatar or not,

Duties or not... I just...

I can't live without you.

Without you, my Life is just as blank as the wall I'm staring at.