Show Me How To Live Again

Chapter Two

Roland's Pov

Screaming, I wake up to screaming....
I get up and run out of my room following the screaming. I reach the door and open it run over to him. I shake him awake, "Calm down, it's okay," I say calming him slightly.

Hidoshi's Pov

I shoot up, cold sweat dripping down my body... My door flies open, him, the guy runs in and over to me, drops on my bed and starts to try to comfort me, "Calm down, it's okay," He says, and I'll admit, it was slightly calming, but... Not very. Tears form in my pink eyes as I curl into a ball, I want to tell him to go away, yet I don't...

It's not okay! It'll never be okay! How could it ever be okay?!

I look up at him as he glances around my room and his eyes lock on a picture of Mei, her red eyes sparkle with her purple to green hair, green starting to grow at her roots, a wide smile, she was so adorable. He looks back to me, resting his hand on my shoulder, "You're okay, everything is fine now, it's in the past." He says. I nod slowly, tears spilling from my eyes. "I know..." I finally mumble out with a teary voice. "But, I'm not okay..." I whisper, his ears perk up.
He heard me.
"Yes, you are, you are completely fine." He then says. "Look at me." I do as he says and lift my head up enough to actually look at him.
"Are you alive?"
"Sadly."
"Are you alive?"
"Yes, I'm alive."
"Are you wounded, physically?"
"No..."
"Then you are fine." He says, his facial expression drops to a glare then shoots back to a concerned look.

I guess he has a point, but... Still.

I sigh quietly, uncurl myself and wipe my tears away, "See? Everything is okay." He says, a gentle smile across his face. I sit criss-cross, staring into my lap.
"Off of depressing subjects..." I perk up, and look at him "I never caught your name." He says, this being an opportunity to be a smartass, I gladly took it, "I never threw it." He gives me this 'really?' look, "Well, I'm Roland." I nod, "Hidoshi..." I answer him.
He smiles lightly once more and I smile lightly too.

His smile is stupidly infectious!

Roland's Pov

"Did I wake you?"
"No, I was already up."
"Why..?"
"There's this tree not to far from here that is a nice place to jump from."

You should ask him to come with!
I don't think he would want to.
It may help..?
With?
He going through the same thing we went through when...
Don't make me relive that.

Hidoshi's Pov

"Still, I'm sorry, you were probably busy with something doing some type of ritual since everyone here has something like that-"
"I said it's fine, calm yourself." He answers, his smile still being infectious. "Calm..? I... Heh, I think I may have forgotten what that meant years ago..." I answer, looking away from him, embarrassed of my answer.
I feel a hand on my cheek, I look to him and realize he was wiping away my tears...

Am I crying?

He sighs and rubs his hand on his pants, "What was your nightmare about? I heard it's normally good to talk about it..." He asks.
"My... My daughter."
"You had a daughter?" I nod and point to the picture, "Mei. Sweetest thing ever, and she loved staying up late to watch the stars with me..." He nods, "I'm sorry..." He says, as it's obvious from the way I'm talking that she's not here anymore. "It's... Okay, I mean, it wasn't your fault, it was... Mine..." I whisper, "What do you mean?" He asks, "You don't have to answer, I don't mean to be pushy, I'm sorry!"  He says quickly, now realizing he was pushing. I shake my head, "No, no... You may not be Lily (Manor's therapist), but you're way too easy to talk to like her." I say as we both chuckle, "I, umm, wasn't in my right of mind like I am now and let's say I did the exact opposite of what a good father is supposed to do..." I answer. He nods, hopefully understanding, "I'm sorry," I rub the back of my neck, "You probably don't wanna hear it..." I mumble, still clearly embarrassed with my face slightly red.

Roland's Pov

"Okay, off that topic..." He looks over at me, "What do you think of this place?"

Really?
What!?
Just go and ask him.
You know what I think? I will show you something.

I put the flames that keeps my beast in check

Hidoshi's Pov

What do I think of the Manor? I-I don't know!

"I can't really answer... I don't really leave my room and if I do it's for the little food I eat, Missions or to get my cigarettes... Or to visit Mei's grave..." I answer, looking away while rubbing the back of my neck again.
"You seem flustered?" He says as if its a question to note it. "I guess I am... I get like this when talking to people, best to ignore it... Or leave if it's annoying to you, it's actually why I stay away from people." I answer. I cough slightly, but try to hold back my coughing fit.

Roland's Pov

You made him mad, you idiot!
I'm not trying to!
Well, his words would say different!
Shut up, please!
Fine, but I will be listening!
Go to Hell!
I'd rather not!

Hidoshi's Pov

Thankfully, my coughing fit passes without me dying.
"You okay?" He asks, "Coughing fit, I really need to stop smoking..." I mumble as I slip out of my bed, "I'm good now, by the way." I say as I adjust my shirt and grab my brush. He gets off and heads out saying bye, and I nod to him as I brush my hair.