~Time Skip~
(This is like 5 or 6 months later)
(This is also when they have crushes on each other)
Hidoshi's Pov
I walk down into the living room and lock eyes with Roland and run back up stairs immediately.
Yes, I'm avoiding him.
Is it because I hate him? No!
Is it because he did something? No!
It's because I don't want to love again... But I can't help but love him...
Would Mei want this? Would she be ok with this? How about Umemi? No, Umemi has no say..!
"Hidoshi!" I hear Roland yell from behind me, I swirl around and look up at him slightly, "Are you avoiding me?" He asks. "I... I, uhh, I..." I can't answer...
Roland's Pov
Roland, stop, now you scaring him!
I take a deep breath and turn to leave.
"Sorry." I whisper and start to walk away...
Hidoshi's Pov
I watch him turn after saying sorry and start to walk away... Everyone leaves, so maybe this time I won't let them...
Before I realize what I'm doing, my face is red and I reach my hand out and I have hold of his arm, an unbreakable grip in my hand and he freezes...
What the fuck did I just do..?
He takes his arm out of my grip and looks at me, "W-"
"I'm sorry! If you wanna leave you can!" I rip my hand away as I back up. He just smiles and walks up to me...
What the fuck did I just fucking do?!
"It doesn't seem like you want me to leave, though." He reasons, and I know my face is the reddest color it can possibly manage...
I know I don't have a fearful look, maybe it's the look I had when I first saw Umemi...
A love sick look...
Roland's Pov
He looks sexy like that...
I know imagine thi-
I feel my cheeks go red when I see what he was thinking.
Stop, if the others see, I'm so never going to hear the end of it!
Hidoshi's Pov
I realize the look that flew across my face and I look away immediately and loose the expression as I also take a step back, and damn my face feels so hot...
"You alright, Hidoshi?" He asks, knocking me out of my small trance. I keep my gaze on the ground and I nod, knowing my face is going redder by the second again...
Damn, it's like I'm with Umemi again... Before she showed who she really was...
"Who's Umemi?"
...
"Was I-"
"Speaking your thoughts? Yep, do you do that a lot?" I grab my right wrist, resting my left arm across my chest comfortably, "When I have a lot of things on my mind, I tend too... It kinda became a habit, because Umemi always wanted to know what I was thinking no matter what it was..." I mumble.
"That's actually adorable."
I look up at him, my eyes slightly wide, and I just ignore how red my face is...
Roland's Pov
I like him, I say we keep him. What do you think?
Yes, you do think Roland?
I jump when I hear everyone's voice in my head it hurt so badly that I nearly fall to the ground as I clutch my head.
Kill me now!
Hidoshi's Pov
After he drops, I drop to my knees and grab his shoulders gently. He jumps, but calms as he drops his arms from his head, clearly not in any more pain
I'm able gain a better grip on his shoulders, "What just happened? Better question, are you okay?" Is the first thing that pops out of my mouth.
Then something happens that has never happened before... It's as if I'm holding Mei again, her breathing living body, her small innocent cries... Crying, she's crying-I can't stop myself... I pull her into a tight, and loving hug and she freezes... But falls into the hug. I look down and... It's not my precious princess it's...
OH, FUCK, IT'S ROLAND!
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Show Me How To Live Again
FantasyHidoshi was once a married man, but had a horible backstory and has done things he regrets that sent him into depression and now he's at the Manor wanting to die, but he doesn't act suicidal. Roland, not much is known about him, read the story to le...
