Show Me How To Live Again

Chapter Tweleve

~Next Day~

Roland's Pov

The next morning when I wake up and feel some type of stress slip off me and then I remember I have to set a time and day. I hop out of bed, getting ready, yell at Beast, normal morning and zoom to Hidoshi's room.
I knock.
No answer.
I knock again.
No answer.
I open the door and find him still asleep.
I slip into the room and watch him as he rolls over calmly hair falling into his face like a curtain being shut. I want to wake him up, yet keep watching him sleep. He shifts again, now clearly uncomfortable.

Is he having a nightmare?
I don't know!
Should I wake him up?
I DON'T KNOW!
You're of no help!

He begins to shake somewhat as he shoots up with his eyes wide, it makes me jump somewhat as well. He breathes heavily and sighs, looking down at his lap as he messes with his hair. He then looks to me and jumps.
"What the fuck are you doing in my room?!"
"I came to check on you.. You made odd noises and I thought you were having a nightmare or something!" I quickly spurt out and he nods slightly with a glare. "I was, I'm fine now, anything else?"
"Umm, oh, yeah! What day do you wanna do it?" I ask and he looks confused. "What?" He says in a dead and confused tone.
"Wait...." He looks to his lap, "I wasn't dreaming..?" He whispers to himself and I just raise an eyebrow.
"You actually asked me out last night?"
"I mean, I remembered it... I don't think it was a dream."
His face goes red and I can't help but laugh, and after finding my breath I restate my question. He just looks away, "Whatever works for you would be my answer... I've never really picked a day or time for anything like that it was always Umemi..." He mumbles and I just smile, "Does tomorrow night work, then?" I ask and he just nods nervously.

Awww! Thats-
Shut iiiit!

~Next Night/Day~

Third Person Pov (In Hidoshi's perspective)

Hidoshi looks into the mirror and realizes how much he really has changed from when he was younger... When he started dating Umemi his hair was short and had a spike to it and his personality matched it all too well.
He was normally very out there and very happy, a smile was normally on his face, as in his resting face used to have a genuine smile... Now it's just a poker face mixed with glazed over, dead eyes. He also used to wear bright colors like blue, yellow, neon red, pink, ect. Now he wears black, but he'll wear something new, like bright colors, for this.
He looks away from his mirror and walks over to his closet, rummaging through it, only looking for a certain outfit. Once he finds it, he smiles as he grabs the light pink tank top, it goes just as high as his normal skin tight shirt, just under his naval, now since this tank top isn't a skin tight one it means it's a bit loose.

Nevertheless, it's a good shirt.

He finds some dark purple skinny jeans that match with it, that aren't ripped and put on my black combat boots.

Good enough.

He walks back over to his mirror and looks at his outfit... Surprisingly it fits him. He smiles and swipes his brush and brushes his hair that now falls past his shoulders... He thinks farther now, he really has let himself go-but he don't really care.
After all of that, he grabs his phone and texts Roland.

(Hidoshi)

hey, im redy!

(Roland)

Alright, I'm in the living room waiting for you!

Smiling, he puts his phone away and heads downstairs.
It's been forever since he's been on a normal, care and love filled date.
Once at the bottom floor he looks over to where he guesses Roland is.
Roland leans against the wall next to the front door near the TV on his phone, a light smile on his face as well.
Instead of his normal outfit he wears a white, long sleeved shirt with a green tank top over it and white ripped skinny jeans that look damn good on him, grey combat boots with that. His tail whips playfully as his Husky ears twitch lightly. His white eyes glitter at the light of the screen compared to the dark light around the living room of the Manor and his dark green hair falls loosely, and has a nice sway.
Hidoshi can't help, but smile when he sees him.
Roland glances up from his phone for a second then looks back up and puts his phone away. He then looks to Hidoshi and smirks...
"You don't normally wear colors? What's up with the brightness?" He asks, "When I was younger I would wear bright colors all the time, thought I'd try to do that again..." Hidoshi reasons as he walks over to him. He just nods and takes his hand with a protective-esk grip.
They then walk out of the Manor, their hands linked,"So, where are you taking me?" Hidoshi asks and Roland just chuckles, "I said it was a surprise, you can wait, can't you?" Hidoshi just nods and lets him drag him wherever it is that they're going, still somewhat smiling.

This will be different. I will have a better love life with him because he won't use and abuse me. He'll love and care for me as I will for him.

They come upon this tree, it's in the middle of clearing, and it looks beautiful with the setting sun. Underneath is a blanket, a white one with carefully stitched dark green and bright green lines. Hidoshi raises an eyebrow at this, "What is-" He's cut off, "Take a seat on the blanket, something will happen if I did the spell right." And as a response, Hidoshi does as he's asks and lets go of his hand and walks over to the blanket, "Roland, are you-"
"Yes, I'm sure, sit on the blanket... For me, baby?" He asks, and Hidoshi can't say no, so he sits on the blanket, his knees and down not on the comfy bedding over top of the light green grass.
He looks over the carefully placed blanket as Roland joins him and pillows have appeared..?
Not only that, but a bag clearly filled with snacks have.
"Roland..?"
"I thought you'd like to watch the stars with me and eat snacks... Because you..." He trails off, and his memory is incredible! He only told him that once, and that was forever ago! Hidoshi smiles and hugs him, pulling Roland into his lap despite him being a little taller than Hidoshi, Roland happily sits in his lap. "You said you'd stay up on weekends with your daughter watching the stars... I thought since the weather said it'd be a clear night that you'd want to stay up and watch the stars with me instead..." He finally finishes his thought and Hidoshi can't help but smile and thank him.
Warm night air brushes them as they watch the stars and giggle like morons, telling jokes about the stars, pointing out constellations and other random things in the sky. Darkish light clouds float among the sky, beautiful still. The last time he was able to relax like this was the last time he watched the stars with Mei, still he finds this comforting.
Roland scoots right next to him and holds him, his head right under Roland's chin, his grip around him is tight and loving. Whenever Hidoshi asks what he's doing he always says, 'curling protectively around you' and that has always made him smile, he may think of it like that while Hidoshi thinks of it as cuddling.
To each their own, is Hidoshi's guess.
Hidoshi just smiles and lets himself fall into his warm embrace as the still warm wind of the night brushes over them. The last thing that passes Hidoshi's ears is, "I love you, and I refuse to lose you." by Roland which makes him smile as he drifts off into the realm of sleep.

Roland's Pov

I watch him sleep, and smile to myself.

Is he asleep?
Ya, he looks comfortable, too.
Let him sleep, he needs it.
Agreed.