happy to help (Kiribaku!! au) - (COMPLETED!)

day 1

authors note :)
hi so i wrote this in july of 2019 (its june 2021) when i was like 11 so pls bare with the cringe or check out my stuff on my new account waves_17 so anyways again, enjoy and please forgive my shitty 11 year old writing <3

ejiro POV

"EJIRO! WAKE UP YOU LITTLE SHIT!!"

this is how every morning started, or some. i would sometimes wake up to my alarm, my mom took my phone and probably broke it. oh well, i'll just save up again.

i get out of bed, get dressed, brush my teeth, i do my hair up like normal though i don't care anymore, it's just for the facade, i get my bag and razors and gauzes and everything. i meet my mother downstairs.

"i'm terribly sorry mother, i humbly ask for your greatest apology. i am willing to take any punishment you find suitable..." i say this as i bow in my mother's presence.
"nope. boysssss~"
"yes mommy?" my brothers and sister say.
"teach this worthless shit fag of a son a lesson."
"of course mommy! thank you for this gift!" says my sister. my brothers start crackle parts of their bodies and thanking my mother.

my sister, aika, has this look on her face. like she doesn't want to do this but she doesn't want to be in my situation, probably pity. my brothers, aki, asahi, and tsuki all beat me senselessly.

i'm screaming in pain, my brothers are twisting my bones and punching me and kicking me. calling me names, while my mom looks to be enjoying all of this. akia, looks at me with a look saying sorry. i don't trust it.

10 minutes later my mom calls my brothers off me. i'm basically sitting in a pool of my own blood. "clean all this mess up worthless," my mother says to me. "yes ma'am."

i clean up the blood. my sister comes up to me and hands me some extra bandages and what remains of my phone, surprisingly only a cracked screen.

"t-t-than-ks, i-i gu-gues-s m-ms ai-ka..." i take what she hands me.
"ei..."
"y-yes ma-ma'am..."
"i'm so sorry..." aika says this with tears falling from her face.
"n-no r-eas-on t-t-to b-e so-sor-sorry m-ms ai-aika... i-i-i de-dese-rve a-all o-of t-th-this..."
she hugs me. "you don't ei... we all broke you... i'll try to put you back together..."
i start to shake. 'will she hit me? call mom, oh god let this end...'
"it's okay ei... i'll protect you as much as i can without it being obvious okay? i'll make the beatings shorter, weaker, to the point were they won't happen for a day or so. i'll help... i promise..."
"m-ms a-aika pl-please do-nt wor-worry mu-much a-about m-m-me..."
"to bad. i'll keep worrying about you forever. come on, time for school. ill split my food with you so you'll have some." she says this with a smile.
"pl-please ke-keep y-y-your f-food..."
"no... when was the last time you ate ei?"
"t-two w-weeks a-a-ago..."
"take it. okay?"
"n-no..."
"hurry up and take it. moms coming. come on your have to go."
"p-please i-i do-nt wan-t you-r foo-food."
"just go come on!"
"s-sorry m-ms ai-ka...!"

i left my house. ms aika gave me part of her food and i can't eat it. i can't. i'm hungry but i can't. she also gave me her jacket for the bruises and such.

i make my way to school trying to perfect my facade for the day. it's almost there but i don't have time to practice. everyday it takes longer and longer to perfect.

i go inside school and go to the showers. i'm not allowed to shower at home so i use the gym showers.

after my shower i go to my bag and take out my razor. i cut... 23... 23 fucking cuts. oh well, gauze now. i put on my gauze. i have makeup in my bag, i put it on along with more bandages.