happy to help (Kiribaku!! au) - (COMPLETED!)

day 7 pt 1

katsuki POV

beep beep beep

as my alarm goes off, i stop it and look at the small creature before me. ei, cuddled up to my chest like i'm the only thing protecting him from the dangers of the world, which i guess is kinda true.

i start to wake him up, i kiss his forehead gently and say in a sweet whisper, "time to get up~" he doesn't respond and just stays sleeping. i start to shake him. he doesn't wake up. i shake him more violently, "ei?! ei you awake?!" no response.

i get out of bed and easily wake up the others. they all run over to the bed and try to wake him up along with me, "g-guys..." aki says, "yeah?" aika responds. "e-ei has red bandages on his wrists..." we all look down to see aki is right, his arms are covered with once white, now red bandages. "oh god..." i say as i quickly take them off. i see that his arms are littered in scars, big, tiny, old, new, it's all there.

'god why ei...?' i think as i make my way with him in my arms to the bathroom. i take off his bandages delicately as i start to clean them from anything that could have infected it, even though it was in the bandage. once it's clean, i take more bandages and cover them back up.

once out of the bathroom, we go into my room. "okay so, does anyone have any clues what's happening?" tsuki nods. "well what happened?"
"i woke up at around 02:12 ish and saw that the bathroom light was on, i knock on it only to hear light sobs. i opened the door to find ei cutting himself, he didn't tell me why though..."
'god ei... i thought we talked about this...' i think after hearing the news.
i exhale, "okay. here's the plan. i'll stay home with ei because of obvious reasons, you guys go to school. if anything happens, i'll text you, cool?" everyone nods.

once everyone is changed, we all head down for breakfast. my mom left a note;

left early for work. be back later tonight.

love mom

"okay guys, what do you guys want for breakfast?"
"pancakes?" aki asks me.
"is that cool?" everyone nods.

i start getting to work on the pancakes while everyone is talking or on their phone, i'll add a word or two in occasionally to the conversation. once breakfast is done, everyone starts to help me with dishes. well, not everyone. but tsuki and asahi wash and dry, i put away.

once we're all done with cleaning up, everyone grabs their bags and heads outside to walk to school. i sent tsuki the directions so he should be fine. i also told him not to tell what happened to ei, word spreads to fast. same with the middle UA.

after they leave, i go back up to ei who is still sleeping, probably passed out from blood loss. i go back into the bathroom and pick up his razor, thoughts flood back to me.

DIE
LOSER
MEAN
INCONSIDERATE
JERK
YOU DIDNT EVEN NOTICE HE WAS SUFFERING
YOU BITCH
PAY ATTENTION
HE DOESNT LOVE YOU

'j-just one...' i think. i drag the jagged rough side of the razor against my silky smooth skin. it cuts easily, but not to bad. it bleeds but not to much. just a little blood.

i look at my wrist as realize all of the consequences for what i've just done.

i don't care.

i drag it more and more across my skin. it glides through. the more i do it the easier it becomes to do so.

after a bit of cutting, i bandage up my arms and wrists. it realized a lot of the stress that i've been having.

i put on a hoodie and go back onto the bed and notice that ei has started to stir. i sing a song that i haven't sung yet to him.

(song above)

i was hanging with you and then i realized
i didn't think it was true i was surprised
when i found out, i've fallen for you
i didn't wanna believe my feelings for you
i didn't wanna that i could lose you
if i told you just how i felt

but i can't help it
i'm falling for U
and i can't quit it
'cause i'm stuck on you

and it might be pathetic and you might be skeptical
but i just want to be with you
please tell me, boy, can you get a clue or come through
'cause i just want to be with you

i'm scared
of telling you how i feel
maybe it's better
if i just try to conceal
the truth for me
and for you
but i'm still stuck on you
aye
i'm still falling for U
for U

he's calmed down. he's sleeping peacefully, i go on my phone and watch videos and look on social media. i find a page that has some quotes on it that i really like;

fake happiness is the worst sadness

the worst part about being told a lie is knowing that you weren't worth the truth

people keep telling me that life goes on, but to me that's the saddest part

i like all of these quotes, maybe i'll have a chance to use them. they are very true.

ei starts to wake up at 10:37.

"hey ei~" i say to him.
"morning suki..." he says groggily from still waking up.
"so, ei. i have a question."
"yeah?"
"why didn't you talk to me? about everything?"
"w-what are you talking about?" he stutters and he's nervous.
"i'm not dumb ei. we all saw..."

he looks down like he's ashamed. i hear small sniffles as i see a tear fall onto my bed sheet.

"hey, it's okay ei..." i say as i pull him into a reassuring hug, he hugs back.
"i-i'm sorry suki..."
"shhhh, it's okay..." he keeps crying into my chest.

once he's calmed down a bit, i pull him out of his trance of just staring off into space while crying in our hug; i kiss him.

after a moment, he realized what was going on and kissed back. after a short and sweet yet passionate kiss, we release from each other and he says, "thank you suki... for everything."
"it's no problem... i love you."
"i love you too."

we cuddle for a bit longer.

Eijiro POV

'thank goodness he didn't see though my facade entirely...'

when we cuddle my mind starts to wonder, we're in the same room and yet it still wonders to dark places.

"hey ei?"
"yeah?"
"you never answered my question."
"sorry! what was it again?"
"why didn't you come to me or wake me up, also what happened?"
i stay quiet. i can't let him know. i look down.
"ei...?"
"s-sorry..." i say as a single stray tear escapes my eye sockets.
"don't cry ei, then i can't see your beautiful eyes and smile..." suki says as he wipes my tears with his thumb while his hand is cradling my head. i lean into it and smile a little.
"so, what happened...?"
"u-um... so basically... 2 things... kids at UA are bullying me... but you didn't know because they've been doing it for months and i never told anyone. an-and t-the last o-one..." i start to cry and break at the end, "shhhhh," he says as he pulls me into a hug. i sit on his lap and i relax into his touch.

"my moms not dead..." i say in a whisper.

"w-what...?"

this day is 2 parts, not many days like this but i had to leave it on a cliff hanger come on! kay, i'll try to get the next chapter out soon, i just have a lot going on in my head and stuff that needs to get sorted so give me a bit. also, anime expo coming up, won't update for a bit. oh well, i'll try anyway. basically i'm stressed.

but bye guys!! have a good day/night! 💕