THE BROKEN BOY *On Hold *

"Difficult Times"

Chapter 14

Jackson P.O.V

I was currently laying in my small bed staring at the ceiling as I did a recap of the pass weeks events. I was drifting away in a deadly sea of thought that was tainted blood red with all the memories of a girl I lost. I was completely consumed by my thoughts.

"How could he just come back in to my life after walking out" I thought as I fell deeper and deeper to my eminent death. There is now way I can attend the same school as Emma. I just got settle in my new life and left my pass behind me. Amira is such a nice girl and I can't burden her down with the misfortune of my pass. She deserves so much better than what I have to offer.

"Jackson" someone said but I could pull myself from that dark place that was consuming me whole. I was so consumed by my thoughts didn't event notice she was standing behind me.

I tilled my head to the side and there she was sitting a cross from me staring at me with those piercing eyes of hers. But there was something different in them this time something i have never see, it was hurt and confusion. "She was hurting". I felt a sharp object Pierce my hurt, A burning pain, it felt like I was on fire and for the first time I felt how much i was hurting her.

"How could I do this to her" I thought to myself. she is so into me but I am so blindsided by a love I lost. "When did I turn such on asshole?" She deserves so much better than a broken boy. I know! I was no good for her, I see it in how I treat her but I am so selfish and scared of being alone, I just can't leave her alone.

"Your going to hurt her because your too broken to love anybody but yourself" my subconscious decided to shown it's nasty face. I quickly push it to the back of my mind and try to focus on her.

I could see amira boring hole into my paralyzed body, impatient waiting for me to answer her but I couldn't will my tongue to utter a single word. I was so monopolize by my deepen thoughts. If only she knew what was going on in my head and how I felt only then this wouldn't be so hard. I tried my hardest to will my tongue into submission and spoke gingerly.

"Yes" I tried really hard for my voice to not sound Shakey but I failed.

"Jackson, I know something is up with you I just don't know what it is, you have change so much" she said while taking small step to stand at the bed I was stretched out on.

Has so walk over, I noticed so was dress in Yahoo tights and and oversized t-shirt that looked like mine. As she approached I shuffled over so she could lay beside me. The small bed felt even smaller as it occupied us both. She laid on her side with her arm thrown lazily over me and her head nesting in the crack of y neck. I felt whole and complete in her embrace as if I could bear my soul to her and only she could understand my pain, I know she was mine and I was hers in that very moment. I felt her soft breathing tingling my most sensitive spot and a Serge of electricity trail slow down I could feel my dick come live. I want her.

" Babe! When I am ready I promise I will tell you everything" I told her honesty. She took a deep breathe and release it slowly sending warm air on my neck that intensify the feeling of arousal. She spoke slowly.

" Jackson, I have been meaning to ask you something but I have been so nervous I chicken out whenever you are near"she paused for a minute before she continued. " Wh-- humm what am I to you, like are we in a relationship" she stuttered shyly.

I haven't given it much thought, I know I like her a lot and I have always considered her as mine but am I ready for a relationship? No! I am not ready, but can I leave amira alone to be with someone else? FUCK NO! I would die before I allow that shit to happen. Call me selfish but she is mine. I felt she stiffed and shuffled up a little at my long paused and I knew she was beginning to think stupid shit.

" You are mine and I am yours" I told her softly and with such confidence as I lay a kiss on her head and I felt her relax for the first time since she as been laying beside me. She snuggled a little closer to me with a grin press into the side of my neck.

Author notes: I have been M.I.A for a good while but I am back now. Sorry for not posting but there with be another post tomorrow so look out for that one and again I am really sorry.

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