COLORS (Day6 Jae X 15& Jimin)

Chapter 9 - Black Hole

Somin came this time, again but she looked sick. She was only allowed to do squats according to Matthew. Once again Woodz joined them.

"You're looking pretty, Jamie." He complimented while doing stretches. Woodz wanted to know more about Jamie, so he snatched her phone and looked for her Spotify. He looked for her work out playlist.

"Why do everybody keep on snatching my phone?" Jamie asked in annoyance. Woodz smiled at her, giving her back her phone before running. He played Jamie's playlist and was shocked to hear 'Breathe' me by Sia.

It was such a sad song to listen to while running. He glanced at Jamie who just put her airpods on. Mark Tuan gave her his airpods as well. Woodz didn't know Jamie was that techy. She used to carry around an iphone 4s or 3G. He's not sure anymore. He only spent time with her once, and they were running separately the whole time.

She look determined to run even though her choice of music was sad. She's really weird.

She's kinda like Somin. She was such a sad girl. She always think that she wasn't enough. They constantly remind her that she's beautiful and that they love her. She as so consumed with self hate that she listened to sad songs often. She work out with sad songs, hating herself with no rest.

She stopped eating and drinking and was dehydrated and diagnosed with anorexia, and the girls in her school adored her for achieving the impossible. There was no fats in her body and they adored her skin and bones.

She loved the fact that people can no longer call her fat. Nobody can mention the word 'fat' when they're with her and she loved that.

Until she met Matthew. A guy obsessed with body building and self-care. The guy that made her realize that being healthy is what matters most.

Somin became happier and loved life ever since Matthew came.

But there are bad days where she would stare at herself in the mirror and cry, because she's not as skinny as she was when she used to have all the control with her body. Back when no weight loss was enough.

Good thing Matthew would always be there to cheer her back up.

He focused on his running more than Jamie's playlist but never changed it. He wanted to know why these girls keep on torturing themselves.

He's a sad person as well but he prefer to keep himself entertained. He only listen to happy songs to convince himself to smile everyday. Listening to these types of songs made his heart tired. It always made him think of what it would be like if he disappeared.

He suddenly wanted to cry. He's supposed to feel healthy that he's out of the house and out here trying to live healthy. Once he's back inside his room, he shuts the light and in silence, he's killing himself. He tortures his real self.

It came to the extent where he would look in the mirror and fear his smiling reflection. He feared that his reflection wasn't him. He was different from how he felt. But he learned to stop looking in the mirror and just let it be.

Just show people that he's happy when he's not. It's what they wanted to hear anyway.

His personality divided because the people wanted to see someone different when they see him.

"Are you ok?"

"No!"

"Why not?"

"......"

"Are you poor and starving?"

"...."

"Are your parents separated?"

"...."

"Do you have a fatal disease?"