UNRAVEL 2

im terrible

Oof sorry guys back again after months of being gone.
-mae🍰

I walked out of class after the bell rung and headed towards the restroom, looking down watching my every step as my thoughts wondered I couldnt think straight. I felt stressed, I felt drained but why? Everything thats happening doesnt feel right to me .

I steadily grabbed the handle to the restroom door and went in looking to see the closest stall i can go into. As i found one i quickly went in and locked it. I looked down once again and leaned against the wall. "I feels so stupid... Why am i even in here..." I closed my eyes and moped there a few mintutes before i heard someone come in. 'Guess i should go now...' As i got up i made sure i didnt leave anything on the ground just to make sure. I swinged open the stall door and walked out not wanting to be there any longer.

Hurriedly i ran to the bus stop hoping mine wasnt the first one to get there. My eyes looked around if i reconized anyone who goes on my bus but to my dismay i didnt see anyone. I cursed under my breath and looked at the bus as fast as i could until i spotted mine. I pulled out my bus card and showed it to the bus driver. She let me pass and climbed up and saw people starinh at me and i swear i screamed inside.

Ness pov:

I took a big yawn looking out the window watching everyone leave but i wondered why its taking so long just to go. I lifted up my head and looked at the bus driver who seems to be talking to someone. I huffed and lean back wanting the bus to leave already but kept my eyes on the door way. My chest jumped a bit seeing that it was Lucas whos late.  I couldnt stop staring at him and i clutched my fist. Something in my stomach didnt feel right.

He stood there looking around row after row until he started to walk down coming closer and closer to where i am. I grabbed my bag and held it close to me making sure my eyes dont interlock with his. My chest was pounding and i prayed that this would end soon. I hear him sit down and i felt my body freeze 'oh noses...' As he sat down the bus finally took off and i carefully moved my head to glance at the floor and didnt see his shoes.

I lifted up my head in confusion my eyes wondering to see where he ended up sitting. As my head turned my eyes met with a  familiar blue and my breathe hinched. He was sitting on the edge of the seat close by me but his gaze wouldnt leave mine. My mimd snapped out of it and my eyes finally tared the gaze between us and screamed in my head about how risky that was.

Lucas pov:

I placed my head into my hands and groaned. Why was he lookinh at me?? I didnt mean to look at him! He just kept staring what else was i supoose to do. I scoffed and layed back crossing my arms irritated from the events today. The rest of the ride there was loud and long but when i looked out i saw the neighborhood that i came to love so much and got my stuff ready. 

we got closer the bus hult to a stop as i stood up to get ready to head off. As i waited till the people in the front get off one by one i glanced over at Ness who seemed to be waiting too but his eyes looked back at him and i quickly turned my gaze somewhere else. 'This is awkward i probably look like a creep' i held onto my straps and tried to distract my mind until it was my time to go. I took a step into the small walk way but stop myself when i felt Someone bumping into me.

I turn my attention back at Ness as he took a step back. " uh sorry " he mummbled out enough for me to hear him and i grip my straps harder and nodded "its alright sorry too" i said back at him but i looked away and quickly walked down and out the door. As i walked my eyes glancing down at my feet my heart wouldnt stop racing and my mind wouldnt stop thinking. Ness makes me nervous. I cant even face him anymore without feeling stressed.

I 'wonder if its the same for him?' My feet stopped moving and i looked up at the sky. Around this time the clouds seem to make the sky look more fulfilling, that nothing is missing and it all comes into eachother so nicely. I wish i can stay out here all day and just stare off into the world. Ness came into mind somehow making a slight smile on my face. After i realized what i was doing i groaned again and continued to walk again feeling gross again for even thinking such a thing. "I miss her terribly why would he be the first one i thought of... God Im terrible"