I did it today. I saw you standing at your usual spot by our tree and I guess I just couldn't control myself. I saw you're eyes gazing longingly into mine and I knew there was no stopping now. No matter how hard it would be from now it wasn't going to stop but we did it anyway.
I ran straight into your arms today as you opened them for me. I hugged you so tight as if you were gonna disappear if I were to let go. It felt weird at first maybe cause I've never hugged anyone else apart from my family or friends but then I felt complete. A sense of security and calmness washed over me. It felt incredible, magical. Never knew I could feel so much emotions just by hugging you. You pressed a feathery light kiss to my forehead. Even though I was standing on my tippy toes to reach you, you are a giant compared to my height and it was easy for you.
I buried my face in the crook of your neck and your scent filled my nose making my mind smile. Your scent of mint and forest, it was so earthy and calming. It made me feel so at ease and I knew it right there and then that you are still walking around with my first kiss. It probably could be both of us but I'm not sure about you and I don't even care if I'm not your first. I want you to be my first and all of my last. You can be my last first kiss.
Then I wake up to realise it was just a dream.
