Peter Pan and Tinkerbell (Kim Namjoon/RM Fanfiction)

witnessing myself dying

10th August 2023

It is the day, you are getting married. A.K.A the day I'll be dead. I'm not planning to die completely but I'm totally dead inside.

The usual wedding went on. You looked really happy, dimples were popping out as you were constantly smilling. It looked like it was the best day of your life. I've never seen you smile like that.

I attended the after party. I sat beside Namjoon. Being so close to him reminded me that this might be the last time.

I can't assure if I can see tomorrow, if I do, you won't be able to spend time with me. You will be busy with your new wife.

I am hella depressed past few days and since I'm a really good actor. And also used to this situation, no one is able to figure out what I'm going through.

Sure Seokjin and I often made eye contact cause he was staring at me whenever I looked at him. He knew it that I wasn't okay.

Everyone knew that Seokjin and I were officially not a thing anymore. It's been years. Seokjin is even dating someone by this time.
He is doing far better than I am

I was prepared for a speech by chance I have to speak but also wasn't prepared. I am afraid of public speaking.

Almost everyone was finished with their speech and heck they are so good at it! People almost forgot that groom's bestfriend also needs to speak something.
That's when Namjoon raised his hand and reminded everyone that I need to speak.

I hate him. He knows that I have this phobia of public speaking. He smirked as I glared at him.

I stood up and Namjoon handed me the mic. I chuckle nervously and said “Hi everyone, I'm y/n Namjoon's bestfriend. I would like to let you know guys that I am not good with public speaking so please excuse if I stutter or my voice becomes shaky. I thought I was safe but this idiot right here had to remind everyone.”

The people laughed. And I continued “I met Namjoon at the first day of my kindergarten school. He was a tall kid and very friendly. He was the one who asked me to become his friend. If he didn't then maybe I wouldn't have been here today, I never talk to strangers the first!”

Namjoon took the mic from me and added “She is so bad at making friends. And so introverted and shy that it's actually harmful for her. But she gets comfortable with time. Now continue” and then handed back it to me.

“Thanks for adding such an important information Namjoon. So, when we were in middle School we kinda had a fight. And that's when Namjoon decided to make me his best friend. We promised eachother to become better friends than PeterPan and Tinkerbell. And looks like we are quite doing that well. Throughout life I have rarely helped him cause he was already mature and smart to handle his own problems. I on the other hand, was born dumb and I always got into troubles. He helped me so much and I'll always be thankful to him for that. He was the one who asked and inspired me to draw. The one who made me who I am today, an artist.”

I took a deep breath, “Today I'm so happy that he is getting married. I was getting worried at a point if he will end up dying alone. Thank you Hyuna for not making that true.” I said to his wife while chuckling.

“You guys are cute. Take care of Hyuna, she is one beautiful person. You guys are lucky to end up with each other. I hope you guys stay happy forever after like Disney movies.”

And I ended my speech with a smile.

A/n
Okay that's it for today.
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