Soulmate

Always

You always say you are fine but deep down you know it's a lie.

You always smile but your soul cries. 

You always want to be someone else and pretend that everything is okay.

You always hurt yourself, so you wouldn't hurt someone else.

You always...

...broke your heart to protect another's.

You became like this when he left. He took everything you had. Every little piece of your heart, your love and trust, happiness and joy. He left you in the colourless world and took sparkles from your eyes.

You cried your soul out. You forgot what it was like to be loved or how to love. You gave him what you had and he took it. You had nothing. Until you learned how to hide. Hide from your feelings, from your emptiness, your sorrow and pain. 

You will always be hurt.

You will always feel this pain.

You will always hide.

Even when you find your love.

You won't be yourself again. 

That one happy and loving girl you were.