My eyes gets wide open and my heart skips a beat, did he just said what I think he said? NO, NO, NO I’M NOT GONNA KISS ANYONE! “Isn’t there a rule saying that she has to get three options?” Ethan asks, thank god, he always got my back.... “Don’t be so boring Anderson!” Tristan laughs, a loud and quite annoyed laugh. He lift his eyebrows and mimes something in frustration to Ethan, which seems to don’t care at all. “I’m not, I just want her to get a fair chance” the tone in his voice is calm and cool, like where does he get all that confidence from?
I look across the table, meeting two dark blue eyes which makes me completely lost every time I look in them. He looks almost worried, “are you okay with this or do you want a new dare?” he
asks me. Oh stop it! don’t make it up to me… His worried and hopeful eyes, gives me a bad feeling, like I’m gonna hurt him so bad by answering. I hate this, I hate this stupid game, I hate this stupid dare, and I hate these STUPID FEELINGS! “I don’t know..” I say and look down on the floor. He stands up and make his way to me, but I’m still sitting on the floor, looking at the fluffy grey carpet. “Hey look at me…” he almost whispers lifting my chin a little with his really soft hand, forcing me to look deeply in his eyes. He’s sitting so close to me, I can feel his warm mint breath hitting my face. I’m so scared, like what if I do something wrong, what if I’m a bad kisser? He leans closer and closer for each second, not breaking the eye contact. Scared as hell, I back off a bit... They’re all looking at us, OH GOD! WHAT IF I HAVE A BAD BREATH!!! I CAN’T DO THIS… I fast turn my to the side, rejecting him, picking up my phone from the floor before running as fast as I can out of the room. The last thing I wanna do right now is to look back at all their disappointed faces...
Tears are streaming down my face as I crash down on the ground outside of the house, I hate this, I hate this stupid “LOVE” thing, I hate myself so much!
“Forgive me please, ooh hoo, if I made you cry… Forgive me please, ooh hoo, if I killed your night...”
The music plays in the background really loud, so loud I can’t hear my sobs, and the bass is so loud I can’t feel the pain… But my heart is still in a million confused pieces… I’m sure he hates me now… I had the chance to love, and to be loved… But I was too scared… I’m scared of love, and it hurts…
“I didn’t think it through, I fell into this mood… Where things get out of hand… Forgive me please, ooh hoo, if I made you cry… Forgive me please, ooh hoo, if I killed your night…”
The tears are burning down the skin on my cheeks, leaving my eyes red and puffy. I feel so bad, like I lost everything, because I let this stupid fear take over me… Like I always do…
The wind is blowing through the trees hitting my bare skin, it’s so cold outside, but I don’t really care right now. The only thing I can think about right now, is how disappointed I am, and how dumb I can be… “Oh it’s here you are” a familiar voice says behind me, I’m way too upset to turn around and look who it is, but I don’t really need too, ‘cause in a few seconds a female figure sits down besides me… I can feel a hand touching my cheek wiping my tears away, it’s Talia. She opens her arms and I fall right into them, crying my last tears out. “It’s okay, everything’s fine, girl...” she says brushing her hand over my head, “...this can happen to everyone, I think everyone is a bit scared when they’re gonna have their first kiss” I can’t help, but lets a new tear roll down my face. “I know, but I feel so bad… Like… I don’t know…” I tell her between my sobs. “Don’t… Like, okay I have an Idea...Just trust me” she gives me a serious look, before giving me a kiss on the cheek. I look a bit confused at her, but she just moves her head a bit up, so that her lips are right in front of mine… And then she gives me a quick kiss…
“See it isn’t that bad… Now get inside and give your prince Charming a wonderful kiss”.
I must admit it wasn’t that bad, but this is a way different thing, like she’s my best friend and I don’t have any feelings for her, but with Draven…
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OUT OF LOVE
Teen FictionAva is a student at Eastwood secondary School, and is about to finish her last year. She lives alone with her mom and her cat, Mogli, in a small town called Hadford. She has always been a little shy and afraid of love, until she meets this special b...
