Dear Lena,
It's been a year. I can't believe it's been a year. One year. Three hundred and sixty five days since you left me. You left me to raise Noah on my own. Everytime I look at Noah, I see you. He is the best of you and the best of me. I can't help but think that Noah would be better off if he had both of us. I am doing my best without you, but the truth is... I need you. I need you every day. These letters are helping, but... I still struggle to sleep. I need you to come back to me. Noah is going to go through some things that I will not know how to deal with, things that only you can know how to deal with.
Promise me you'll watch over him and help him when he desperately needs you. Help him when I don't know how too. Help him when he needs you the most. I'm begging you. Please, be there for him, when I can't, when Supergirl can't, when even Arthur can't help him. Please... please... please.
Alex and Maggie have taken Noah to their apartment for the weekend so that I can have some alone time. This letter isn't helping, it's making me miss you more. It's making me crave you, your touch, your smell, your voice. But you're gone. I can't have you anymore because Rao took you from me.
I'm mad at Rao! He took you from me! He took you from me with no valid reason! He took you from me without asking! He took you from me and it hurts. And you! You! You went with him... willingly! Why, Lena, why? Why did you go with him? What did I do wrong? Why did you choose to leave me? Why did you choose to leave Noah, who was barely even two days old?
Did you know that Noah spent the first few days of his life in the newborn intensive care unit? Did you know that before you left him? Did you know that before you left me? Maybe you did... Maybe that's why you left? Maybe you gave your life to save Noah's?
And if you did that, that would be so brave and honorable and I would love you even more for that... but if you didn't do that, then I hate you for leaving me and for leaving Noah. Do you hear me? I hate you. And I really hope this letter makes its way to you, wherever you are so that you can read it and see how much you've hurt me... how much I miss and need you.
This letter has taken me all day to write and now I must sleep because if I don't I'm afraid I'll lose my mind.
Goodnight Lena.
I miss you.
Your love,
Kara.
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Letters to Lena
FanfictionKara Danvers a.k.a Supergirl has recently lost her wife and best friend Lena Luthor in child birth, which Kara had not expected to be the event to kill the LCorp CEO with the jet black hair and the sparkling green eyes. Now, Kara has to raise her an...
